The Greater Good

" Its for your own good"

When i hear this all i could visualize a voice inside me 'don't patronize me'.

So how is like listening the track- 'forget it' from Breaking Benjamin. I can say it feels like drowning, all that surrounds me is water and i am going within. I met a little doll everyday, she is around 8,i guess but when after the walk i stall near a shop for cold drink, i see her waiting with other kids for her school bus. 

There is a thing between us we never break the schedule even by a minute.So comes to shop for her usual fruit candy.

Today morning

" Hi miss mango candy!"

"I m ..not...mango candy...i m chia"

"Chia.. what is that"

" Its .... my name..thumbs up buoy..."

The way she said that make me choke with the laughter and thumps up. She was pretty magic!

" Well i m known as kaiser"

" Whats..that ..sounds like .. south indian"

"Hell no! thats japanese chiaaaa"

" Hmmm.. anyways my mom says not to talk to strangers"

" She is right.. but dont worry i am not going to put you in a bag!"

"You dont look like one, do you?"

"Well so far, so good. Never did that before so you can count  me"

" Well you never know. these days"

" Ya sure you never really know"

So we paused there, i finished up my thing and she was busy with the candy,rolling her head may be she was recalling some song  or something else but her carelessness and freedom just intrigued me. So i waived adieu to her and was walking on my way back.

After some time i realized she was coming at my side. So i stopped. She handed one of her candy to me and said - see ya and ran back to her stop.

After jogging a bit and reached my pocket for the candy. I just like some automated machine got rid of its wafer and put it in my mouth. I wasn't expecting something great as in taste. At the same time the track that played was - 'Little by little i got everything i dreamed of' by Oasis. And i can say that candy was really very sweet!

Black Swan

Nail biting, thrilling and absolute Morphine!!!!

I have been obsessed by the conflicts of mind but this is something amazing. A ballet dancer tiptoeing to the perfection and in turn gets haunted by her own control. Beautiful Natalie Portman had to portray the white swan who is a virgin trapped in the body of a swan and can only be freed by true love. She gets it in the Prince but her jealous twin, the black swan seduced him away. Heartbroken white swan finds freedom only in form of a tragic end.
Natalie perfect cast for white swan- fragile,beautiful,affected,sensitive and pure. But the question is to embody the black swan- Lustful,wicked,cunning,charming and beautiful. How can a ballet dancer do the both in the same act one after another is a matter of life and death for 'nina' who has given every thing to dancing and is now turning 28 so it has to be a final act. Story grips even a non artlover too and is heaven for the people on the other side.

yuppieeeeee

Its ironical how events unfold right in front of us in quick succession. Opportunity outta Adversity. Last year when the options got slimmer every day and this year they seems like abound. Hard work pays off and so do knowledge,not a drop gets lost and everything falls within the the periphery of hope. So help me god to get the trailer going, if my plant has to be nourished by rocky efforts, so be it. But its kinda weird too, to realize the tranquility. I anticipated zaniness but the effect is of a gratified happiness.  

Whatever it is this feeling is a welcome guest and i will celebrate it the same way, coyly.

Lets get the juggernaut start,all the way!

pal,hum rahe na rahe yaad..

This song is dedicated to single song which works for me as a shot of something huge that makes me to stop and just get lost into it. K.K. is one single dude who has sung this song for which he must be proud forever. Ingenious,pure like crystal mmmmmuaaaaaaaahh... The rise and fall of tempo is just out of world. As i am listening to this its hypnotizing me all back and forth like a pendulum onto the memory lane. If this had to be produced with KK's voice so be it but you know what when this life is small so small that all now that has happened and those moments when you see a rainbow in the night; thats love mates, thats love.
Little things and events makes you exited. In one moment you glare like a shooting star, next moment you are the white dwarf. Thats physics, its inevitable but its the speed with which things happen so quickly. Now i had such times, now there are only memories; I am not repenting or in remorse but instead i am gratified that even for some days, i witnessed genuine happiness, feelings...

'Ane wali subah jane kaise hogi' well thats hope. Thats being optimistic, haah its like hoping that it should rain hard tommorow so that the schools would be closed. But its kinda needed to live peacefully. So i play this heaven thing one more time. Pal...yaad ayenge yeh pal.....   

fyki....

Its a bit noteworthy of how do we discredit small things."A gentleman must be capable of appreciating things like sugar too!" - i mean thats the advice i would always remember not because my grandmother said it so but because it relaxes me. She sure was a wonderful woman and i don't know why i am speaking about her today but that's the way i am. All i trust are my whims. And that what i like about my grandma because she being a traditionalist was surprisingly a experimentalist. I remember whenever i ate packed foods like maggi or soup, she although curses them for being not healthy but at the same time never missed a chance to have a bite from my plate! She wore my caps and goggles, whenever i asked her if should would like to try them. 

There were times when she would urge me to listen her mythological stories at bedtime and i would act like i am already asleep. There were also times when i used to beg her for telling me the stories and she would act as if she is asleep. Funny as hell. For a guy like me who is in entertainment for gratification and intellectual stimulation; she had a mastery of telling the same stories night after night with unique presentation and humor every time. Goddamn she was charming! Its not easy to entertain  a teenager with same rhetorical mythological stories everyday.Every night i would be tricked by her no matter how hard i tried. 

Almost 90% of talks we had were jokes, imitation of each other and laughs. 5% was cursing each other for being a jerk. 3% were arguments for TV and 2% was her advice to me. 

In that 2% of talks she would be very serious and tell me to remember certain things after she's dead. She being not with me was an unacceptable truth to me. I knew that she being old enough is getting weak but i would ignore every-time i thought about it. It was like not-a-option to me. So i never cried when she was gone; everyone else did and may or may not have made opinions about me. But it doesn't matter. 

And now when some salt or sugar falls somewhere i feel somewhere that i must appreciate it and that's where is my grandma and i crave to listen her calling me a gentleman or a hand on my head atleast....

 

Cloud no. 9

Clue number one was when you knocked on my door.
Clue number two was the look that you wore.
And that's when I knew, it was a pretty good sign,
That something was wrong up on cloud number nine

Well it's along way up and we won't come down tonight
Well it may be wrong but baby it sure feels right

And the moon is out and the stars are bright
And whatever comes is gonna be alright
'Cause tonight you will be mine - up on cloud number nine
And there ain't no place that I'd rather be
And we can't go back but you're here with me
Yeah, the weather is really fine - up on cloud number nine

Now he hurt you, and you hurt me
And that wasn't the way it was supposed to be
So, baby tonight let's leave the world behind
And spend some time up on cloud number nine

Well it's along way up and we won't come down tonight
Well it may be wrong but baby it sure feels right

Well we won't come down tonight
Ya we won't come down tonight
No we won't come down tonight

And the moon is out and the stars are bright
And whatever comes is gonna be alright
'Cause tonight you will be mine - up on cloud number nine
And there ain't no place that I'd rather be
And we can't go back but you're here with me
Yeah, the weather is really fine - up on cloud number nine

We can watch the world go by - up on cloud number nine...

dont u frgt abt me baby

They say love is just a game
They say time can heal the pain
Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose
And I guess it's just a fool
I keep holding on to you

I told you once you were the one
You know that I'd die for you
Although it hurts to see you go
Oh this time you should know
I won't try to stop you

Don't you forget about me baby?

Don't you forget about me now?
Some day you'll turn around and ask me, why did I let you go?

So you try to fake a smile
You don't wanna break my heart
I can see that you're afraid
But baby it's too late
'cause I'm already dying

Don't you forget about me baby?
Don't you forget about me now?
Some day you'll turn around and ask me, why did I let you go?

Whereever I go I don't forget about you
Whereever you go don't you forget about me. 

stay-insomnaic

I know it's late and you're tired
And we'd been talking for hours here
You don't have to tell me

I see that look in your eyes
And I know soon we'll say our goodbyes oh yeah
I feel it coming

And I hear you take a deep breath
And my hands are starting to sweat
I don't want you to
I don't want you to leave yeah

Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
'cause when you're around me everything's right, don't go
Oh, don't leave me alone
Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
I wanna hold you in my arms show you what that's like, don't go
I need you, I need you

You grab your coat and I'm dying
But I know you're still deciding, yeah
'cause nobody's moving
Time stops and everything's quiet
I'm hanging on for my life and you
You don't even see it

And then you come in closer
And baby it's not over
Till I hear you say, till I hear you say
Goodnight oh yeah

Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
'cause when you're around me everything's right, don't go
Oh, don't leave me alone
Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
I wanna hold you in my arms show you what that's like, don't go
I need you, I need you

Something about you saves me
Something about you makes me feel like I'm alive

Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
'cause when you're around me everything's right, don't go
Don't leave me alone

Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
'cause when you're around me everything's right, don't go
Oh, don't leave me alone
Stay here tonight, stay here tonight
I wanna hold you in my arms show you what that's like, don't go
I need you, I need you

Stay with me tonight, I need you, Stay with me tonight, I need you