Travis

Once there was this guy named Travis. He always believed he had a greater purpose to be in here as he would gaze stars and watch galaxies on Discovery channel. He would ask himself if there are billions of heavenly bodies around us and we are just one of them how belittling is our existence in this world?

When i am competing against a few classmates of mine, is my being fist or last is going to make any difference?

If me becoming next school Captain going to fetch anything which is still meaningful? Its all confusing. So stopped looking!

Next day after football match he went to library and saw a huge encyclopedia and a brand new Guinness Book of World Records Book full of Photographs. He picked that and began to flip pages. He used to wonder what motivates people to accomplish such unimaginable feats. May they want that their name gets on air or TV, May be really they want be  a cynosure. But still whats the point.
Meanwhile his eyes got transfixed on world's most expensive brasserie untill the library teacher twisted his ears and girls on the left corner busted into laughter.

Everything he looked at formulated a newer question for him and he incessantly used to work out for an answer.

He loved Physics and mathematics breathed an air of distinctive masculinity in itself just like football! So he detested chemistry but ironically he enjoyed its lab the most. Once his teacher gave him a bit of sodium and had learned an equation in the previous class that when Na come in contact with H2O it liberates Heat+ Gas. So he dipped it in Sink to blast entire casing with a blasting noise.
Then he got an interesting insight in a music class amidst all rhetoric 'aaroh' and 'abroh'. His teacher brought a music clipping as she worked also as a professional singer in local Doordarshan channel. That music caught his hyperactive mind. For the  first time he was able to concentrate in the class for more than 5 min.  That music played for full 20 min.
Bang! What was that? It felt so nice.
I mean in a class of 45 minutes Travis made at least 9 comments and constant observation of what others are doing were the things that used to be interesting.

Charlie can testify all that.
Charlie was his best friends. After all some one has to listen what Travis is observing!
" Hey Charlie Neha brings a different napkin everyday with day name written on it, that's Creepy"
" Hey Charlie Arvi got her legs waxed, yesterday they were not!"
" Charlie you know when i was taking that free kick , i literally demolished tinu's nuts , you should have looked at his face."
" You know what charlie our choco boy Davis is new prey of Richa, yesterday i saw him bringing his special and fucking stupid scrapbook to her"
In middle of this maths teacher got upset and busted Charlie.
"Charlie did you solve the question?"
" mmmmm.. nmm....."
" Then why are you laughing"
Travis tilted his notebook and whispered answer in his ears. So Charlie flashed back with an answer and inspired a look of awe among others. That was chemistry between them.
' You watch my back, i watch yours kind off'
Movies were his passion. He got limitless supply from Father Davis in school and Dusyshant Sir in college. Theaters and paintings came on later. Traveling was the best he can ask for. Food you name it he had tasted it. No matter what comes by he cant compromise on art because he hath found it. The answer of all those questions. The aim of life should be broadening of horizon of limited thinking as that is what which can be treasured all the time. Its value is not temporal unlike wealth.  But this should not converge with hedonism because it would take a connoisseur and a parvenu to the same level which is unacceptable.
So he went on that path. The path not only chosen by him but also designed and finalized by him. But you know what there was something missing.
Then he met the love of his life. The first time he saw her a strange affinity traversed through his mind which was very different and totally unexpected.
It was an obnoxious rhetoric which rang into his ears. " Have i seen her before?"
" Nope"
" Then why is that i cant look in her eyes."
A feeling which never before formulated, materialized in an instant.
It took him a fortnight to understand the phenomenon.
Little by little that sunshine illuminated inspired his soul with that feeling which never caught him even once! So he let that storm pass over but as they say once you are in love that storm never passes, it remains!
It glistens the surface which is an interface between self and outside. You are caught up so good that you cant decide whether to stay or move on. If you stay then you are ruined and if you move then you are bound to be ruined forever.
Travis was in a phase which showed him true colors. His imaginations got so deeper and longer that he felt it was much better to be in that unreal ambiance filled with idealistic love.
That was why that he used to miss her ever when she was already there! I mean dude Travis really got twisted and the worst part was that he liked being that.
Travis always knew that he cannot be wrong with judging people because he never did that in the first place. Sunshine was so beautiful and so much like him that all he looked for was thinking about her and what she may be doing.
 But the poor chap didn't saw it coming. He never thought of one possibility.
 What if, On a blue moon day she doesn't show up?
May be he didn't wanted to think about it. So he didn't ...
..And it happened!
Remember Murphy law- 'anything that can go wrong will go wrong'
So when it happened it was in stages; then 3 most detestable monsters came to meet him. They were never able see him even once before.
First came the Grief.
He made him miserable. Beat the shit out of him. He used to pretend that she was there near him, may be thinking the same about him. And she will show up. He was waiting for her, just like in Hindi movies the hero gets the beating untill the heroine shows up and then the table are turned. But they are fiction after all and truth hurts. So this Mr. Grief punches him hard, one after another. Travis rises up and gets beaten up again. He asks this question to himself between consecutive lashings.
" Why did i let myself love you" and then hope comes up and he say a contradictory statement-
" I know she's gonna come , she too loves me and she will come for sure , may be some other commitments she might have had"
" Commitments, look dude, i understand them but you should see your face. Look at you, what you were and what you've become"
Second came the Fear
He messed with his soul. The most priced possession of Travis was his fearlessness. His tenacity and candidness. Fear tried to snatch it from him.
Third came the Pain
Pain was not new to Travis, he had confronted it many times. But this time he got the real glimpse of it. Every time he tried to come near to her love, only despair and guilt came to him.
They all were gone then. Left him lacerated and in his own blood and sweat he cringed for some ground. Some sort of relief.
He recalled the purpose and he rose again. Travis stood on his feet to mark a new beginning.
He was stronger than ever before.
He drank his own blood and tears and licked his wounds.
He has to show that he was hit but not down yet. So he gathered all that he got and ran and ran harder towards his Goal. No matter how hard his outer environment messed with him he still will run on the path designed him.
You must be thinking what was that goal.

It was a new way alto-get-her.

He was running hard towards the Sun.

To get what he can't live without.

She was SUNSHINE!