A classic novel and a classic movie on the same about how important it is to understand a person if one needs to really make an opinion.I am speechless really.
Ok now i can actually write about this classic movie which otherwise would have been missed unless i wouldnt have checked IMDB Top 250 list. Why its among top 250 isnt a big question now for me but what's really impotant is to understand the plot, its seriousness and also appeciate the work considerting fewer resources at the time of black & white film making. The plot opens up with 2 kids brothers and sister along with their advocate father. The story is narrated by the sister which testifies to the very detailed description of the neighbourhood and childhood games, trivia and stuff. Its not about an incident that changes life of a few people but throws light on real society dogmas.
1. A black man who was being advantaged by a women who later put serious charges on him when the former denied to aquiesce to her wishes. Now neither the lady had committed a crime by making the carnal feelings known to the slave but she knew that if that got out in public the coda or rules of society will naturally put her at the centre of malice from every section so inoder to protect her from such a vice she inturn put the charges on the poor black man.
2. A reclusive kid who suffers from some phychological ailment named 'boo' by neighbour hood kids is the one who saves the brother and sister mentioned in the plot in the end. Earlier the same kids out of curiosity about boo tries to form different opinions about him and his condition.
3. Atticus, the father of the bro and sis, plays a lawyer who believes to defend what is truth without passion or prejudice, forms the central character of the whole work. He has been portrayed as an ideal and a virtuoso who must be actually the kind out society be made up of.
In an all one must not kill a mocking bird because neighter does it hurts us directly or indirectly but just sings his heart out to make our day better.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
First Day
So, it is your first day at your new job and you don’t really know what to expect. You have been to the office before but only briefly at the interview and have got a first impression about the company. But, how much do you really know about the office etiquette and how you are expected to behave? Well, there are some simple rules and guidelines to abide by so that you will take to your new workplace like a duck to water.
The basic behaviours that will be expected of a new starter are those that the current office will already practise. Adhering to the dress code will be demanded so ensure you know if the company encourages suit-wearing or smart casual as this will make you feel comfortable and prevent an embarrassing first day. It will feel awkward if you arrive for work in a three-piece suit to find your peers and boss in jeans and trainers or vice versa.
As a new starter you will be expected to adapt to the office environment that you are joining. Don’t think that you can just impose your personality on the workplace as this can appear as arrogance and may alienate you from certain members, if not all, of the office. Take your time when you start to monitor the other workers and get an understanding of how they work, speak and behave. Doing this will enable you to become a part of the office hierarchy as you smoothly integrate into the group.
Many of your actions should be based upon those of the existing workforce. However, this doesn’t mean that you should act sheepish and introverted and become an office clone. There may be various traditions that are followed so try to make yourself aware of these early on so you don’t offend people when you flout these rules. An example of this could be communal tea runs, when the single cup-of-tea maker will be victim to whispers and gossip-mongering.
Don’t be afraid to be yourself as it will enable your new workmates to get to know you right from the start. Setting the tone and conveying your personality is an important part of making an impression, so do it in the right way and you will be a popular figure in no time at all.
Respect is one of the cornerstones of a happy office so treat others with respect or risk becoming an eternal outcast. Talking over people, making personal calls and telling offensive jokes are all ways of making you disliked with little chance of reconciliation. First impressions are so important so be aware that your new office will be scrutinizing everything that you do in order to gauge a quick evaluation of what you’re about.
Your first day is likely to involve a lot of meeting new people, so ensure you sleep well the night before. Yawning or appearing disinterested and vacant when you are being shown around is not going to set you in good stead for your new career. Listen carefully to any important information and don’t be afraid to ask questions when you don’t understand. It will let your boss know that you are listening and that you are keen to learn.
The key to becoming a fully-integrated member of your new workplace is simply to listen and observe to your new workmates. You will be spending more time with them than you will with your family so take the ime to get to know their quirks and beliefs. You will not want to seem invisible but you will also need to avoid standing out from the crowd for the wrong reasons. It will be hard to convince people that their first impressions were wrong.
Starting you new job is an intimidating time for any person, but try not to be too nervous as this may affect your behaviour negatively. Be confident, without appearing arrogant, and get to know your new peers during breaks and conversations as this will further improve your chances of enjoying a happy working life. The new office could be your workplace for a very long time so it makes sense to make the effort to fit in without irritating too many people.
The basic behaviours that will be expected of a new starter are those that the current office will already practise. Adhering to the dress code will be demanded so ensure you know if the company encourages suit-wearing or smart casual as this will make you feel comfortable and prevent an embarrassing first day. It will feel awkward if you arrive for work in a three-piece suit to find your peers and boss in jeans and trainers or vice versa.
As a new starter you will be expected to adapt to the office environment that you are joining. Don’t think that you can just impose your personality on the workplace as this can appear as arrogance and may alienate you from certain members, if not all, of the office. Take your time when you start to monitor the other workers and get an understanding of how they work, speak and behave. Doing this will enable you to become a part of the office hierarchy as you smoothly integrate into the group.
Many of your actions should be based upon those of the existing workforce. However, this doesn’t mean that you should act sheepish and introverted and become an office clone. There may be various traditions that are followed so try to make yourself aware of these early on so you don’t offend people when you flout these rules. An example of this could be communal tea runs, when the single cup-of-tea maker will be victim to whispers and gossip-mongering.
Don’t be afraid to be yourself as it will enable your new workmates to get to know you right from the start. Setting the tone and conveying your personality is an important part of making an impression, so do it in the right way and you will be a popular figure in no time at all.
Respect is one of the cornerstones of a happy office so treat others with respect or risk becoming an eternal outcast. Talking over people, making personal calls and telling offensive jokes are all ways of making you disliked with little chance of reconciliation. First impressions are so important so be aware that your new office will be scrutinizing everything that you do in order to gauge a quick evaluation of what you’re about.
Your first day is likely to involve a lot of meeting new people, so ensure you sleep well the night before. Yawning or appearing disinterested and vacant when you are being shown around is not going to set you in good stead for your new career. Listen carefully to any important information and don’t be afraid to ask questions when you don’t understand. It will let your boss know that you are listening and that you are keen to learn.
The key to becoming a fully-integrated member of your new workplace is simply to listen and observe to your new workmates. You will be spending more time with them than you will with your family so take the ime to get to know their quirks and beliefs. You will not want to seem invisible but you will also need to avoid standing out from the crowd for the wrong reasons. It will be hard to convince people that their first impressions were wrong.
Starting you new job is an intimidating time for any person, but try not to be too nervous as this may affect your behaviour negatively. Be confident, without appearing arrogant, and get to know your new peers during breaks and conversations as this will further improve your chances of enjoying a happy working life. The new office could be your workplace for a very long time so it makes sense to make the effort to fit in without irritating too many people.
Battle
Let me share with you the strange thing in the battle of Stalingrad where Hitler armies suffered a serious retreat from Russian front which later proved to be an important reason for the loss of the former. Hitler armies were strong and equipped in every sense but the reason they lost were very preculiar i.e. Chilling cold and prolonged duration of the war.
Russians knew that its quite hard to sustain an army in biting cold and if they could anyhow prolong the war they would win. However the technique is not that easy to apply as it requires an even temperament for a long time. This is a very important observation.
Let us look at it from a different angle.Any good team knows that in a test match all you need is too save wickets if you are batting in the first innings. And the opener must have a strong temperament to not to be greedy but very selective with which ball to play and which one to leave. But you must see the interesting irony. A fast baller balls maximum on the off side with a sufficient width to play and at the same time you will find most players fielding on the off side. In a way they are counting on the batsman to make a mistake and play the ball. Everytime the batsman becomes greedy he gives away the wicket.
Now its all about having nerves to withstand pressure for entire day of play and choose shots. Rahul Dravid is a player to look for in test matches. He has incredible demanour for test matches. He ignores the acerbic comments from ballers and tries all the time to just concentrate.
Now we will see how the concept is glorified when we do the same thing in an experiment under controlled conditions. In our ecosystem there are animals who have a task to remain alive and feed themselves and their offsprings if any. So by nature of their place in the food chain and offensive style they accomplish this task. So we have 2 chimps( chimpanzee) from different parts of globe. One living in evergreen forests another living in hostile dry lands. Both have to survive. The one living on dry lands have fever resources to live on and the only way to get protein is to eat the hard nuts with a strong cover on them. They cant have it as it is because of their not so strong teeths but they have to wait so that they get dried up and then they have to immaculately break them with stones with impeccable timing and intelligence for their IQ level. They can now eat the core. But the Chimp living in evergreen forests have a rich number of choices cant have same level of perseverance to do such a thing for eating a small nut. Guess what our dry land Chimp is ready for battle of survival as compared to the other Chimp.
So when the outcome of an effort is far off and not visible just now it creates panic. We loose interest in those tasks and what makes it worse is that you can do nothing but wait and just work streadily. Such battles are really test of supreme level of character and determination. Just as a 100 mts spring racer works day in and out for a race which lasts only for some minutes. Those few minutes can change the live for an athelete for ever. But inspite of knowing this just a few infact 2 or 3 people make it to the top. What makes them different. I guess now you know the answer.
I mean right now both US and Russia have enough defence power to eliminate one another but inspite of being evident rivals at the time of Cold War all they did was to empower themselves on not one but all the fronts which connotates to power.
Last but not least, how to live the time when the outcome is away and work steadily. Opposite to the common believe one cannot work efficiently in a mood of negative or distressing ideas. One has to be self motivated for the Goal first and then try to infuse positive thoughts as they give good energy level.
Russians knew that its quite hard to sustain an army in biting cold and if they could anyhow prolong the war they would win. However the technique is not that easy to apply as it requires an even temperament for a long time. This is a very important observation.
Let us look at it from a different angle.Any good team knows that in a test match all you need is too save wickets if you are batting in the first innings. And the opener must have a strong temperament to not to be greedy but very selective with which ball to play and which one to leave. But you must see the interesting irony. A fast baller balls maximum on the off side with a sufficient width to play and at the same time you will find most players fielding on the off side. In a way they are counting on the batsman to make a mistake and play the ball. Everytime the batsman becomes greedy he gives away the wicket.
Now its all about having nerves to withstand pressure for entire day of play and choose shots. Rahul Dravid is a player to look for in test matches. He has incredible demanour for test matches. He ignores the acerbic comments from ballers and tries all the time to just concentrate.
Now we will see how the concept is glorified when we do the same thing in an experiment under controlled conditions. In our ecosystem there are animals who have a task to remain alive and feed themselves and their offsprings if any. So by nature of their place in the food chain and offensive style they accomplish this task. So we have 2 chimps( chimpanzee) from different parts of globe. One living in evergreen forests another living in hostile dry lands. Both have to survive. The one living on dry lands have fever resources to live on and the only way to get protein is to eat the hard nuts with a strong cover on them. They cant have it as it is because of their not so strong teeths but they have to wait so that they get dried up and then they have to immaculately break them with stones with impeccable timing and intelligence for their IQ level. They can now eat the core. But the Chimp living in evergreen forests have a rich number of choices cant have same level of perseverance to do such a thing for eating a small nut. Guess what our dry land Chimp is ready for battle of survival as compared to the other Chimp.
So when the outcome of an effort is far off and not visible just now it creates panic. We loose interest in those tasks and what makes it worse is that you can do nothing but wait and just work streadily. Such battles are really test of supreme level of character and determination. Just as a 100 mts spring racer works day in and out for a race which lasts only for some minutes. Those few minutes can change the live for an athelete for ever. But inspite of knowing this just a few infact 2 or 3 people make it to the top. What makes them different. I guess now you know the answer.
I mean right now both US and Russia have enough defence power to eliminate one another but inspite of being evident rivals at the time of Cold War all they did was to empower themselves on not one but all the fronts which connotates to power.
Last but not least, how to live the time when the outcome is away and work steadily. Opposite to the common believe one cannot work efficiently in a mood of negative or distressing ideas. One has to be self motivated for the Goal first and then try to infuse positive thoughts as they give good energy level.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Empowerment
These days the evenings are pleasant and they kinda give a feel of lingering festive season. Although its an irony that i am more at home this time of weather. Since this time gives me more of confidence and a ever growing ability to achieve things. Maths has been my favorite because of its flow and speed. Sometimes people around me come in a fix when they see the clashes of nearly opposite interests but then i say its a part of life and one finds amazing truths.
Some phases of life are very entertaining and naturally happier. That time goes so fast that its hard to stop and actually see through it. But then that time pass by and you are all alone they come back to you as cherished memories. You watch news and find that actually some people are in much more adverse situtations that you actually are.That feeling gives an eerrie satisfaction.
If you have more of futuristic approach then it becomes day dreaming. You watch how doing this or that would manifest as future. People have goals, dreams and ambitions which they want to accomplish. They give them sleepless nights but purposeful days when they really put efforts in what they believe.
Some of hardworking individuals are working hard with amazing perseverance to realise their Dreams. Neekhra for almost 2 years now eversince i was doing my Job is residing in Delhi to crack massive IAS test. Pyare Guptaji is working in the same manner for IES. Some of my peers have achieved their goals in terms of actually doing what they believed in. These are normal guys with whom i had discussed in details for nights about the definition of success.
It didnt go all in vain. Actually success is a selfish term if you see the truth. People have false notion that some guy is undergoing an Ordeal in lonliness because its got something to do with a group aspiration which is melodramatic and has little truth in it. People take calculated risks or bold decisions because its a question of their individuality.
Now a guy with a basic level of reasoning would know that if the purpose of life is only compromise then we the people who are born with adequate resources are no better than the self which we see overselves in mirror.
Compromise is a very easy and basic path which just anyone can find. If some has decided that we will live with just minimum facilities then they can easily do it.
I am not advocating false methods of rising up here and nor i am diverting readers to the path of non ethical money gorbing individuals. I am just raising a question of living with a purpose.
In my case i aspire to appreciate arts, creation and altruism as my extracurricular activities. I aspire to empower people bu helping them realise their potential. Those dreams if have to be executed requires that i must first empower myself to a level as soon as possible by exerting my self and honing my potentials. For a first few years i have actually done that but givig jobs to average skilled people that too handful and financially established people will not get me anywhere in the long run. How about those hundreds of boys and girls those who lack the coveted postions just because they dont have right exposure or learning of their potential.
I have lots of ideas regarding this cause and best of all i feel like i am made to do this. I intend to join a institute to give me skills to do just that. A research on a high profile organisation on the line of managerial tools will be helpful and so on.
But first i have apply muself to realise the first step.
Some phases of life are very entertaining and naturally happier. That time goes so fast that its hard to stop and actually see through it. But then that time pass by and you are all alone they come back to you as cherished memories. You watch news and find that actually some people are in much more adverse situtations that you actually are.That feeling gives an eerrie satisfaction.
If you have more of futuristic approach then it becomes day dreaming. You watch how doing this or that would manifest as future. People have goals, dreams and ambitions which they want to accomplish. They give them sleepless nights but purposeful days when they really put efforts in what they believe.
Some of hardworking individuals are working hard with amazing perseverance to realise their Dreams. Neekhra for almost 2 years now eversince i was doing my Job is residing in Delhi to crack massive IAS test. Pyare Guptaji is working in the same manner for IES. Some of my peers have achieved their goals in terms of actually doing what they believed in. These are normal guys with whom i had discussed in details for nights about the definition of success.
It didnt go all in vain. Actually success is a selfish term if you see the truth. People have false notion that some guy is undergoing an Ordeal in lonliness because its got something to do with a group aspiration which is melodramatic and has little truth in it. People take calculated risks or bold decisions because its a question of their individuality.
Now a guy with a basic level of reasoning would know that if the purpose of life is only compromise then we the people who are born with adequate resources are no better than the self which we see overselves in mirror.
Compromise is a very easy and basic path which just anyone can find. If some has decided that we will live with just minimum facilities then they can easily do it.
I am not advocating false methods of rising up here and nor i am diverting readers to the path of non ethical money gorbing individuals. I am just raising a question of living with a purpose.
In my case i aspire to appreciate arts, creation and altruism as my extracurricular activities. I aspire to empower people bu helping them realise their potential. Those dreams if have to be executed requires that i must first empower myself to a level as soon as possible by exerting my self and honing my potentials. For a first few years i have actually done that but givig jobs to average skilled people that too handful and financially established people will not get me anywhere in the long run. How about those hundreds of boys and girls those who lack the coveted postions just because they dont have right exposure or learning of their potential.
I have lots of ideas regarding this cause and best of all i feel like i am made to do this. I intend to join a institute to give me skills to do just that. A research on a high profile organisation on the line of managerial tools will be helpful and so on.
But first i have apply muself to realise the first step.
Monday, September 20, 2010
20 sep 10
Sometimes i miss you that it becomes so hard for me to stay focussed. But then i try to calm myself that you are somewhere near me. I cant imagine things without you. I have associated you in every story of mine. For world outside me its difficult to watch that i am drenched in your love.
Give me strength to weather this storm.
I hope this letter must find you in your good health. You are my peace so how can it be possible to find it in the things that gave me such relief earlier. I try to watch a film in theatre and all i think of is you. So i come out of it in the interval. I try to read a novel and i see you as the character. I listen songs and end up finding that it is written on us. I just cant leave this foolish mind alone even for a second.
I sometimes think that if i had thought of God as many times i would have thought about you, i would have already got Moksha. Well that is myhological POV but really i dont know how would react when i would finally be with you. Every one is unique in their existence but when my search came to a stop with you, it actually started all over again to actually find you.
Ok i feeling a lot better now.....
Give me strength to weather this storm.
I hope this letter must find you in your good health. You are my peace so how can it be possible to find it in the things that gave me such relief earlier. I try to watch a film in theatre and all i think of is you. So i come out of it in the interval. I try to read a novel and i see you as the character. I listen songs and end up finding that it is written on us. I just cant leave this foolish mind alone even for a second.
I sometimes think that if i had thought of God as many times i would have thought about you, i would have already got Moksha. Well that is myhological POV but really i dont know how would react when i would finally be with you. Every one is unique in their existence but when my search came to a stop with you, it actually started all over again to actually find you.
Ok i feeling a lot better now.....
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Call me Dil- Our song
mera o mera chehra, hua mujhse anjaan kyun
kaun hoon main, kaun hoon main oooo..
aawaz to hai meri, par kehta koi aur hai,
jhoothi meri batein aur sachcha mera pyaar,
to kya meri pehchaan hai
bolo na kya naam hai
call me dil, call me baby
call me jo naam tu main wahi
call me sach to main sachcha,
call me chahe jhootha hi sahi..
Listen to this song from jhota hi sahi. You will feel a sense of Deja Vu
kaun hoon main, kaun hoon main oooo..
aawaz to hai meri, par kehta koi aur hai,
jhoothi meri batein aur sachcha mera pyaar,
to kya meri pehchaan hai
bolo na kya naam hai
call me dil, call me baby
call me jo naam tu main wahi
call me sach to main sachcha,
call me chahe jhootha hi sahi..
Listen to this song from jhota hi sahi. You will feel a sense of Deja Vu
Class Resturants, exquisite food, philosophical conversations, Extensive welcome wherever you go, corporate mature crowd, disco-theques,phychoanalysis while talking,service of hefty travelling expenses around the country and in the city, an AC auditorium with eager crowd to hear you, an AC office of grand size with foreign furniture, a car with a driver for office work only ofcourse, a black suit and last but not least a salary to cater luxury of your hobby; in my case travelling. What else would a young man of 23 could ask for.
Then i would say to myself you did it man the dream which no one believed an year ago ; you did it. My friends and foes were equally ecstatic with the move i made. But i decided to take it on my stride. Then guptaji,my confidante and now in iit delhi with 99.89 percentile, once made a usual cup of tea for me and told me to get ready, i reluctantly got out with dishevelled appearance. I asked guptaji that do i need a shave. He gave the same expected reply " mast lag raha hai". I got ready in 7.5 min. I know it exactly because coldplay song -its a beautiful world- takes 3 min and then rekhabharadwaj song- beedo- takes 4.5 min. As i eat breakfast and a hefty glass of milk by then i would have decided what i have to do for the day and then what is to be done in the evening.
But then when this day multiplied by 500 days were over i have to analyse and see whether i am closer to what i have thought i must achieve. Answer was yes but the process is slow and now its the time to do what is required i.e. to get MBA done from a descent college. I started the prep before hand i.e. before i complete my 2 years of work Ex. Preperation was all fine but it really took a toll over my life as i got a little time to sleep for 2 months. As soon as i had 2 years completed i bid adieu to my first and happy profession to move on.
I got home and its quite satisfactory the way i am doing for preperation.
good evening sunshine.
Then i would say to myself you did it man the dream which no one believed an year ago ; you did it. My friends and foes were equally ecstatic with the move i made. But i decided to take it on my stride. Then guptaji,my confidante and now in iit delhi with 99.89 percentile, once made a usual cup of tea for me and told me to get ready, i reluctantly got out with dishevelled appearance. I asked guptaji that do i need a shave. He gave the same expected reply " mast lag raha hai". I got ready in 7.5 min. I know it exactly because coldplay song -its a beautiful world- takes 3 min and then rekhabharadwaj song- beedo- takes 4.5 min. As i eat breakfast and a hefty glass of milk by then i would have decided what i have to do for the day and then what is to be done in the evening.
But then when this day multiplied by 500 days were over i have to analyse and see whether i am closer to what i have thought i must achieve. Answer was yes but the process is slow and now its the time to do what is required i.e. to get MBA done from a descent college. I started the prep before hand i.e. before i complete my 2 years of work Ex. Preperation was all fine but it really took a toll over my life as i got a little time to sleep for 2 months. As soon as i had 2 years completed i bid adieu to my first and happy profession to move on.
I got home and its quite satisfactory the way i am doing for preperation.
good evening sunshine.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
True Lesson
It is a tragic truth that most of the important lessons of life are taught by merciless teacher of time. These lessons mould the character of the subject so as to become more mature inorder to overcome losses. These are the time that reveal the depth of the subject so as to give specific judgements about their true nature.
Likewise when a few of close inmates of mine sometimes in intrinsic and normal time would swear eulogies about their commitment to me in the times of need. Once i had a serious confrontatation with college authorities about some disciplinary issue. 6 of us were involved in the matter and now we were dealt with one on one for confessions. We were given choices; some of them were lucrative others could jeopadise our career or life. Since for an indian male education is not only a luxury to fetch the societal status but also a serious method to earn a living and support parents just about to retire; the lucrative ones were a simple and easy option.
2 out of 6 broke down and gave us the other 4 a suspension of a week. No hard feelings for those 2 guys but they were then not able to look us in the eye for their life. I dont judge people on the basis of what they say or do at the times which are easy ones but if you want to test the character of person it is the hard times.
Those who are shallow and have problems to look beyond their narrow beliefs and false sense of self-rigeousness cum psuedomoralistic skewed viewpoints; they will never find true love and friends in their life. When you die all you want is one person near the death bed to tell you that you were awesome in your lifespan. I mean that is your wealth.
I can say that among scores of friends i have made some brothers on my own judgement and value system. They are above societial methods of dealing and they are staight in their approach.
I remember how we have dealt with our strifes and fights. We used to come face to face and say that i dont like this thing about you. I miss that straightforwardness in society. People will laugh and giggle; make commitments and then very easily neglect them as if nothing ever existed. But thats okay and i have learned my lesson.
Likewise when a few of close inmates of mine sometimes in intrinsic and normal time would swear eulogies about their commitment to me in the times of need. Once i had a serious confrontatation with college authorities about some disciplinary issue. 6 of us were involved in the matter and now we were dealt with one on one for confessions. We were given choices; some of them were lucrative others could jeopadise our career or life. Since for an indian male education is not only a luxury to fetch the societal status but also a serious method to earn a living and support parents just about to retire; the lucrative ones were a simple and easy option.
2 out of 6 broke down and gave us the other 4 a suspension of a week. No hard feelings for those 2 guys but they were then not able to look us in the eye for their life. I dont judge people on the basis of what they say or do at the times which are easy ones but if you want to test the character of person it is the hard times.
Those who are shallow and have problems to look beyond their narrow beliefs and false sense of self-rigeousness cum psuedomoralistic skewed viewpoints; they will never find true love and friends in their life. When you die all you want is one person near the death bed to tell you that you were awesome in your lifespan. I mean that is your wealth.
I can say that among scores of friends i have made some brothers on my own judgement and value system. They are above societial methods of dealing and they are staight in their approach.
I remember how we have dealt with our strifes and fights. We used to come face to face and say that i dont like this thing about you. I miss that straightforwardness in society. People will laugh and giggle; make commitments and then very easily neglect them as if nothing ever existed. But thats okay and i have learned my lesson.
C'MON HIT ME!
The more destiny will play games with me, the more resolute i will become and i am telling you one day i will come at your place and take you in my arms and bring close to my heart. That will be the time i am sharpening my self. Not that i cant do that right now by its not only about me or you. Many other stakes are involved.
I see my life in your hands and believe in your words that was why i used to ask your for your luck whenever i tried something new. I hope you would understand in due course of time.
So my battle is not outside but with my mind which always consternate on the possibility to find you. I am not goung to break. I had already told you that i wont mind biggest failures but distance from you will be the last straw to break the camel's back.
I am not broken but becoming more and more resolute. I have committed love to you its time to reciprocate the same.
I see my life in your hands and believe in your words that was why i used to ask your for your luck whenever i tried something new. I hope you would understand in due course of time.
So my battle is not outside but with my mind which always consternate on the possibility to find you. I am not goung to break. I had already told you that i wont mind biggest failures but distance from you will be the last straw to break the camel's back.
I am not broken but becoming more and more resolute. I have committed love to you its time to reciprocate the same.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Stupid heart.
I cannot live without telling you more of who I am, in the vain hope that you will see that perhaps you have withheld your deepest thoughts from me in error -- mistaking me for a much simpler and shallower man than I am -- a man who could not possibly connect with you on the level with which you deal with existence.
I always wanted you to think of me to be a complex and rich spirit with whom to connect and revel in love and in deeper pleasures.
Before you met me, I have been alone in my thoughts for a very long time. My high school years were spent searching for some shred of meaning, some answer to the cries for understanding and love in my head. I
studied various philosophies, but found them all to be artificial and unsatisfactory -- the ruminations and constructs of others who seemed satisfied with what they had built, but which left me emptier still.
I am ambitious and work hard to achieve what i believe in, no matter what others think about it. So i decided to act and revel in action and life, perhaps for many years, rather than wallowing deeper into the hopeless abyss.
And then I met you. My older, deeper self cried out to me that maybe here was
deep, but only for the shell I had created.
Inside you i found my inner reclusive self, that mysterious face with typical contours and enigmatic demanour piqued my soul. Inside me was a mad scientist who was shouting "Eureka Eureka" but on the outside i was just plain looking at you disbelievingly. "Why cant i look in her eyes. I meet 100s of people every day and i look them in the eye but why cant i look in your eyes. Neither i am afraid not i am shy then what is that third feeling." I shook my head and reminded myself of not to be too happy. Because what ever i like too much God takes it away from me very quickly.
So I went along with it, I leapt to take what I could get of your heart when I could get it, in the hope
that we would share more deeply.
Perhaps it is folly to think that we could connect this way. It is more likely that we are doomed to the
confinement of our solitary minds.
To you. Now.
Sunshine.
I always wanted you to think of me to be a complex and rich spirit with whom to connect and revel in love and in deeper pleasures.
Before you met me, I have been alone in my thoughts for a very long time. My high school years were spent searching for some shred of meaning, some answer to the cries for understanding and love in my head. I
studied various philosophies, but found them all to be artificial and unsatisfactory -- the ruminations and constructs of others who seemed satisfied with what they had built, but which left me emptier still.
I am ambitious and work hard to achieve what i believe in, no matter what others think about it. So i decided to act and revel in action and life, perhaps for many years, rather than wallowing deeper into the hopeless abyss.
And then I met you. My older, deeper self cried out to me that maybe here was
deep, but only for the shell I had created.
Inside you i found my inner reclusive self, that mysterious face with typical contours and enigmatic demanour piqued my soul. Inside me was a mad scientist who was shouting "Eureka Eureka" but on the outside i was just plain looking at you disbelievingly. "Why cant i look in her eyes. I meet 100s of people every day and i look them in the eye but why cant i look in your eyes. Neither i am afraid not i am shy then what is that third feeling." I shook my head and reminded myself of not to be too happy. Because what ever i like too much God takes it away from me very quickly.
So I went along with it, I leapt to take what I could get of your heart when I could get it, in the hope
that we would share more deeply.
Perhaps it is folly to think that we could connect this way. It is more likely that we are doomed to the
confinement of our solitary minds.
To you. Now.
Sunshine.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Manostithi
I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide
In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide
In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide
Monday, September 13, 2010
Important Move
Sometimes its important to be proactive. One cant sit at the moment thinking that world doesnt exist because i have closed my eyes. It thus becomes important to react to the situation in every plausible way to work out things.
I am apporaching this more important than life like situation with a positive frame of mind. So i have to see how the person i love the most stand up to the cause. My contention is that a life partner is not a trophy to be kept in the showcase but rather a soulmate who achieve things together.
I am apporaching this more important than life like situation with a positive frame of mind. So i have to see how the person i love the most stand up to the cause. My contention is that a life partner is not a trophy to be kept in the showcase but rather a soulmate who achieve things together.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Stubbornly in Love with You
No- No- No i want to tell my conscience that i am dogged and more stubborn when i am chasing you. I have loved your soul and no matter what may come by i am standing taller, stronger and incorruptible. My will power feeds itself on my convictions for my goals and you are not different. How many times my foes will hit me that i will also see. I know one thing that when i believe in something only life can take me away from what i deserve. Ram is in my heart and when He had to fight for what he deserved what is my image infront of the All Powerful.
Its said that higher the peak higher is the sacrifice. When Gods were upsetting the tranquil of the Ocean every one collected wealth and powers but Shiva drank the venom and turned blue. His nerves had every drop of it but he was unflinched and stoic. Such is the character of you my beloved sunshine. I know you will never say a word about the agony of pain which you are bearing. But dont stop to count on me because i wont fail you. Its not because i am in this conflict to find you and i know that the same conflict must have confounded you too. It cant be possible that you will not be able feel the heat when i burn. Your soul is with me.
I am not asking for a stake for what i have worshipped every single second in you. What is in your mind i am able see it right now; because when i write i talk to you. Its immutable law of attraction; entire Universe follows it and so do us. So when i speak to you physically its not enough to convey with the limited scope of language. Let this be clear to the demons that i also worship them as horror and moral terror are friends of mine. For those they are enemies they must fear them. What they will frighten me when i sit on their lap and saw their face not once but everytime i milked them.
Remember God when i was small;i was lying on death bed i promised you something for you to let me live. I never forgot what i had promised.
So dont you worry a bit Sunshine you are inside me and soon that veil will drop and black clouds will diffuse in to space.
I love you more Stubbornly than ever and ever and ever!!!
pls have faith & call my name inside baby for 3 times and i'll know that my love.
my my mydasffasdfawfwoeafeodawerfhasuihfuiag......oh God..pls....pls....
Its said that higher the peak higher is the sacrifice. When Gods were upsetting the tranquil of the Ocean every one collected wealth and powers but Shiva drank the venom and turned blue. His nerves had every drop of it but he was unflinched and stoic. Such is the character of you my beloved sunshine. I know you will never say a word about the agony of pain which you are bearing. But dont stop to count on me because i wont fail you. Its not because i am in this conflict to find you and i know that the same conflict must have confounded you too. It cant be possible that you will not be able feel the heat when i burn. Your soul is with me.
I am not asking for a stake for what i have worshipped every single second in you. What is in your mind i am able see it right now; because when i write i talk to you. Its immutable law of attraction; entire Universe follows it and so do us. So when i speak to you physically its not enough to convey with the limited scope of language. Let this be clear to the demons that i also worship them as horror and moral terror are friends of mine. For those they are enemies they must fear them. What they will frighten me when i sit on their lap and saw their face not once but everytime i milked them.
Remember God when i was small;i was lying on death bed i promised you something for you to let me live. I never forgot what i had promised.
So dont you worry a bit Sunshine you are inside me and soon that veil will drop and black clouds will diffuse in to space.
I love you more Stubbornly than ever and ever and ever!!!
pls have faith & call my name inside baby for 3 times and i'll know that my love.
my my mydasffasdfawfwoeafeodawerfhasuihfuiag......oh God..pls....pls....
Friday, September 10, 2010
Stories that Change Things!
On Eid evening suddently Scheherazade, the 'new' wife of Persian King with a preconceived notion of ingrained infidelity among women, came to my mind. The King used to kill all the women he married on the next day of his marriage. However Scheherazade had a unique craft of story telling and when she begins a story she continued the conclusion for the next night and this goes on for about 1000 days! Thus postponing her death thereof! This collection is also referred to as ARABIAN NIGHTS. In Indian TV context these stories have been manifested in the form of television series by Ramanand Sagar with the name- Alif Laila, the same guy also gave Ramayan! Alif Laila was in my view instrumental to develop my interest in muslims and their language,Urdu which mr. sagar never compromised for the sake of lucidity. This development of sensitivity and religious tolerance gave me my 2 muslim friends which other wise may not have been possible. Asif and mustafa met me at the age of 10 and 22 respectively and gave me enough chances to have siwayian every Eid.
However i would remain closer to the issue which this piece of writing deals with i.e. Sories. There are many people including me who some or other times make mistakes. Afterall mistakes and process thereafter develops a character. Accepting mistakes requires guts because it hurts ego for some people. For we are very concious of what others might think we in general hide our feelings and dont even show love or anything else when it should have been done. 9 out of my 10 friends have never hugged their father and said i love you dad. Of course its not girlish to do that but we come to the conflict of what other might think. Some relationships dont require explicit confession of such feelings but dude seriously if you have the opportunity and resource why not express it; whats the harm!
Marlon Brando was excellent when he says " I coulda have been a contender; I could have a class" in the movie On the Waterfront is one of the best dialogues i came across ever. This guy accepts the guilt and makes serious effort thereafter to correct them. I know many of bums who in their zest for self-righteousness have always thought that what they did at a particular point of time was correct and they also go to the extent of involving God when they say it. Its merely a self satisfying tactic to prove ourselfs to us and nothing else.
When i used to comment in the class and hallways i always thought i was cool. People laughed at my activity and i thought i was a hero. But it was later i realised that i was nothing but a coward because i was not able to look at people in the eye whom i mocked off. This was a fact i cannot bear because its very important for me to look people in the eye it helps me to know what they are thinking! I realised this when the first time i stood on the stage for morning assembly to give a weather report and i failed miserably because some people were doing the same what i used to do. I said to myself-" You couldnt read some numbers written on a piece of paper in public when you thought you can tell some stuff behind their back!" Soon i accepted my fault in public and decided i will make public speaking my best point. And surprisingly it did work.
So what does the story of Brando's character reminds me. Every one makes mistakes, may be some make them more but what makes them bigger is to have guts to accept them quickly without thinking of what they or others might think and rise up to fight back whats lost because that's what winner's do.
Thanks Brando you are the man!
However i would remain closer to the issue which this piece of writing deals with i.e. Sories. There are many people including me who some or other times make mistakes. Afterall mistakes and process thereafter develops a character. Accepting mistakes requires guts because it hurts ego for some people. For we are very concious of what others might think we in general hide our feelings and dont even show love or anything else when it should have been done. 9 out of my 10 friends have never hugged their father and said i love you dad. Of course its not girlish to do that but we come to the conflict of what other might think. Some relationships dont require explicit confession of such feelings but dude seriously if you have the opportunity and resource why not express it; whats the harm!
Marlon Brando was excellent when he says " I coulda have been a contender; I could have a class" in the movie On the Waterfront is one of the best dialogues i came across ever. This guy accepts the guilt and makes serious effort thereafter to correct them. I know many of bums who in their zest for self-righteousness have always thought that what they did at a particular point of time was correct and they also go to the extent of involving God when they say it. Its merely a self satisfying tactic to prove ourselfs to us and nothing else.
When i used to comment in the class and hallways i always thought i was cool. People laughed at my activity and i thought i was a hero. But it was later i realised that i was nothing but a coward because i was not able to look at people in the eye whom i mocked off. This was a fact i cannot bear because its very important for me to look people in the eye it helps me to know what they are thinking! I realised this when the first time i stood on the stage for morning assembly to give a weather report and i failed miserably because some people were doing the same what i used to do. I said to myself-" You couldnt read some numbers written on a piece of paper in public when you thought you can tell some stuff behind their back!" Soon i accepted my fault in public and decided i will make public speaking my best point. And surprisingly it did work.
So what does the story of Brando's character reminds me. Every one makes mistakes, may be some make them more but what makes them bigger is to have guts to accept them quickly without thinking of what they or others might think and rise up to fight back whats lost because that's what winner's do.
Thanks Brando you are the man!
Role Play
When we interact in an environment all we do is to play different roles. Societal roles such as father, sister, wife and so on have certain process attached to it namely cultural, religious and genetic endowment related. This thought is the answer of this question- What does it takes to understand or interact social life?
Why people fail or do not perform better is their inability to understand these roles and the set of rules adhered to it. Now you would argue that no one performs a role but they do happen without any intentions or thereof. That is true but this argument itself has a catch. Let us say that if a child is grown in a family which has both its parents with entrepreneur mindset with a penchant for risk taking to accomplish ambitious goals then naturally the offspring has the characteristics of the same kind and the attitude would more or less allow that kind of thinking. Unfortunately in Indian context there exist may feminine roles which are evolved with a viewpoint of 'taming' in consideration. This may not be ominious in nature but even if its done with good intentions it portends to the idea of subjugation and dependability. Because of evident physical gender bias present in the society some times the need for providing security or livelihood to the feminine class takes a larger context for inducing incapacitation for taking aggresive decison making. Is it good or bad? Well its hard to answer that.
Today's generation has a different take on gender roles as education system approaches more on the side of equality and middle class burgeoning more than ever. Since the average age of complete education has only risen over the decades, coeducation has provided wider avenues to develop some sensitivity on the indispensible issues. However this transformation is not so easy so seep into the minds which are for a long time been brain washed for several years. Conflicts do occur because of presence of hypocritic value system which is hard to reason with. Educated youngsters today feel a state of quandary or confusion when they approach traditional value system on the one hand and their peer system. Say for example every girl aspiring for a bright careers ceases to think about it on a ambitious level as she reaches to the end of graduation or after a few years of graduation. In my interaction for 'Industry Readiness Program' at least 80% of female students were ready to compromise with ambitious brands to less important factors as job location and travelling. When the sense of competition is so good among them while they are in academics what happens to them when it comes to the career. Reason is quite evident-social roles.
In males of same age i was able to identify a huge hypocrisy when it came choose their life parners. I guess this 'taming' the female counterparts has its demand originated from here. Also majority of them found marriage as a hinderance for ambitious careers because of them having to tow the entire new emerged family. To my utter surprise i found it to be true when i had interview a dozen of male candidates who had family base in village.
I got a lot of air cleared after the interaction session because my reservations were somewhat different. I then came to know that i was being much more idealistic when i thought that in a life partner you see a 50%-50% sharing, caring and decision making roles. You aim together and now when you are alone pushing the cart of dreams there is another one who is ready to give hundered percent. Its not about working or housewife role but of a greater responsibility of constant moral support. Decision becomes more mature when it has been thought with 2 brains. But this theory is proving to be a way to much idealistic because in classical retro- thinking its just about playing old and cleched roles framed over generations to meet each others' social demands.
Why people fail or do not perform better is their inability to understand these roles and the set of rules adhered to it. Now you would argue that no one performs a role but they do happen without any intentions or thereof. That is true but this argument itself has a catch. Let us say that if a child is grown in a family which has both its parents with entrepreneur mindset with a penchant for risk taking to accomplish ambitious goals then naturally the offspring has the characteristics of the same kind and the attitude would more or less allow that kind of thinking. Unfortunately in Indian context there exist may feminine roles which are evolved with a viewpoint of 'taming' in consideration. This may not be ominious in nature but even if its done with good intentions it portends to the idea of subjugation and dependability. Because of evident physical gender bias present in the society some times the need for providing security or livelihood to the feminine class takes a larger context for inducing incapacitation for taking aggresive decison making. Is it good or bad? Well its hard to answer that.
Today's generation has a different take on gender roles as education system approaches more on the side of equality and middle class burgeoning more than ever. Since the average age of complete education has only risen over the decades, coeducation has provided wider avenues to develop some sensitivity on the indispensible issues. However this transformation is not so easy so seep into the minds which are for a long time been brain washed for several years. Conflicts do occur because of presence of hypocritic value system which is hard to reason with. Educated youngsters today feel a state of quandary or confusion when they approach traditional value system on the one hand and their peer system. Say for example every girl aspiring for a bright careers ceases to think about it on a ambitious level as she reaches to the end of graduation or after a few years of graduation. In my interaction for 'Industry Readiness Program' at least 80% of female students were ready to compromise with ambitious brands to less important factors as job location and travelling. When the sense of competition is so good among them while they are in academics what happens to them when it comes to the career. Reason is quite evident-social roles.
In males of same age i was able to identify a huge hypocrisy when it came choose their life parners. I guess this 'taming' the female counterparts has its demand originated from here. Also majority of them found marriage as a hinderance for ambitious careers because of them having to tow the entire new emerged family. To my utter surprise i found it to be true when i had interview a dozen of male candidates who had family base in village.
I got a lot of air cleared after the interaction session because my reservations were somewhat different. I then came to know that i was being much more idealistic when i thought that in a life partner you see a 50%-50% sharing, caring and decision making roles. You aim together and now when you are alone pushing the cart of dreams there is another one who is ready to give hundered percent. Its not about working or housewife role but of a greater responsibility of constant moral support. Decision becomes more mature when it has been thought with 2 brains. But this theory is proving to be a way to much idealistic because in classical retro- thinking its just about playing old and cleched roles framed over generations to meet each others' social demands.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Incredible!!!
On a rainy day evening i take my bike to take a survey of the city. Naturally the twilight is accompanied with a stupendous colour change phenomenon but rain makes clouds grey and to feel the rain at some far of place is that earthy smell- pure, original and basic. Many names to the same thing makes it appear ubiquitious and all encompassing. So when rain has acquired such a status a dreamer would always like to be underneath it, always without exception. When it is drizzling it is quite satiating to drink the raindrops falling from the clouds, ssssssssssssrrrrrrrrrp!
Crazy people with crazy intentions are always very normal people, ironically. The famous 'chana wala' whom i used to hear far off about 8 years ago suddely caught my attention when he was singing the same chana selling song near my neighbourhood. For 8 years this guy is selling 'chana' with lemon and spices!
Listen this- On any evening if you are traving in the intercity from bhopal to indore or otherwise you are bound to find this idiosyncratic but funny slogan- ' Uncle Aaagaye- Lays- Uncle Chips- Uncle Aaagaye'. I am listening to this guy for what like 6 years now! When he comes late i go find him in the train not because i want to have the chips(although i have it anyways,love chomping!) but i want to see this guy reciting the slogan. Kids love him & enjoy his voice and i m no different.
Incredible is the thing how consistently one can be involved in a activity which is highly repeatative and monotonous. Ofcourse financial reasons do come into the picture but if you look at his another anecdote you'll have to change your line of thinking.
Joshi Sir, whom i like not because his physics stuff and competitve seating arrangements but extraordinary sense of humour with timing is teaching the same subjects and material for past 15 years now. Once i asked him over a light conversation about this. " Dada aap 15 saal se ek hi cheez kar rahe hoo woh bhi 10 ghante per day every day, bore nahi hote"
Dada replied a beautifully- " Sharma tujhe pata nahi mein bahut bore ho jata hoon but there is a point here. I am getting older every year but my students remain young and of same age every year. They makes me young and i like being young."
Now i knew why joshi sir cant resist his tight t-shirts and jeans even his bulging belly touches the one who sits in first position in his class. Jokes apart the guy has a good endurance and a penchant for public speaking which makes him stand for hours inspite of broken joints in one of his legs.
Ok i was listening to an interview of Marlon Brando who is one of the great actors world and i have even see. He is know for method acting which in bollywood you can find in AJay devgan though he is okay types. Brando says that if i do a role i become obsessed with it and the role embodies me. Every one does some acting all the time but the thing is that it looks beautiful only on some of them. So playing different roles is not the key but playing same roles with subtle differences which audience should be able to make out is the key! Jai Ho Brando Sahab point noted!
"Incredible things are not neccessarily great things!" Signing off with this line.
Crazy people with crazy intentions are always very normal people, ironically. The famous 'chana wala' whom i used to hear far off about 8 years ago suddely caught my attention when he was singing the same chana selling song near my neighbourhood. For 8 years this guy is selling 'chana' with lemon and spices!
Listen this- On any evening if you are traving in the intercity from bhopal to indore or otherwise you are bound to find this idiosyncratic but funny slogan- ' Uncle Aaagaye- Lays- Uncle Chips- Uncle Aaagaye'. I am listening to this guy for what like 6 years now! When he comes late i go find him in the train not because i want to have the chips(although i have it anyways,love chomping!) but i want to see this guy reciting the slogan. Kids love him & enjoy his voice and i m no different.
Incredible is the thing how consistently one can be involved in a activity which is highly repeatative and monotonous. Ofcourse financial reasons do come into the picture but if you look at his another anecdote you'll have to change your line of thinking.
Joshi Sir, whom i like not because his physics stuff and competitve seating arrangements but extraordinary sense of humour with timing is teaching the same subjects and material for past 15 years now. Once i asked him over a light conversation about this. " Dada aap 15 saal se ek hi cheez kar rahe hoo woh bhi 10 ghante per day every day, bore nahi hote"
Dada replied a beautifully- " Sharma tujhe pata nahi mein bahut bore ho jata hoon but there is a point here. I am getting older every year but my students remain young and of same age every year. They makes me young and i like being young."
Now i knew why joshi sir cant resist his tight t-shirts and jeans even his bulging belly touches the one who sits in first position in his class. Jokes apart the guy has a good endurance and a penchant for public speaking which makes him stand for hours inspite of broken joints in one of his legs.
Ok i was listening to an interview of Marlon Brando who is one of the great actors world and i have even see. He is know for method acting which in bollywood you can find in AJay devgan though he is okay types. Brando says that if i do a role i become obsessed with it and the role embodies me. Every one does some acting all the time but the thing is that it looks beautiful only on some of them. So playing different roles is not the key but playing same roles with subtle differences which audience should be able to make out is the key! Jai Ho Brando Sahab point noted!
"Incredible things are not neccessarily great things!" Signing off with this line.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Love the way you lie
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Monday, September 6, 2010
Beautiful Monster
All my life
And the hereafter
I've never seen
Seen one like you
You're a knife
Sharp and deadly
And it's me
That you cut into
But I don't mind
In fact I like it
Though I'm terrified
I'm turn on when scared of you
She's a monster
Beautiful monster
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind
And I need her
Said I need her
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind
And the hereafter
I've never seen
Seen one like you
You're a knife
Sharp and deadly
And it's me
That you cut into
But I don't mind
In fact I like it
Though I'm terrified
I'm turn on when scared of you
She's a monster
Beautiful monster
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind
And I need her
Said I need her
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Story of My Life: Feel the Rythm
Story of My Life: Feel the Rythm: "It took be some time to decide the heading for this post. Nothing can be so satisfying to write something to you as it gives me a feel that ..."
Feel the Rythm
It took be some time to decide the heading for this post. Nothing can be so satisfying to write something to you as it gives me a feel that this moment is not lost albeit this moment just now got registered somewhere. Anyways this evening after my usual batminton session when i was driving back to home, i saw the transition of ambiance from reddish at the horizon to darker patches as the time passed. 'How much i have changed in a last few years'- i simply watched this thought coming in front of me. I didnt bother to answer it but i do appreciate the changes as they are for good.
Some things i thought i would never be able to feel i have felt in this phase. I never acknowledged simple things and subtle emotions. As a matter of fact i used to discredit them as weakness but as they say time is a ruthless but a great teacher. I am happy that it has taught me some of things very early which i always wanted.
So how would i define love when its definition has evolved inside me over and over. Well first when you are in love you can never know that really but as you realise that a feeling of appreciation more dominantly admiration and deep respect grows inside you for your love. But as this goes on;you begin to see colours and loose sense of time. The more you get in to this feeling the more you want to let go yourself inside it. Love takes all over you and mind begins to create fictious events of your jubliation in a variety of ways. A stage come when you supercede the reality and create a larger than life image of your partner. This is idolation. Now when such a big and yet light image is created the realilty is not in anyway near to this imagination. That was why i missed you even if i was talking to you. Your one spoken word was sufficient for me to think about you for entire day.
But when you find another explaination to this definition you see that love can not be received from outside. Unless i dont feel it inside me i can never get it from you. So as a matter of fact no one craves for love -its wrong, it just canthappen. People can crave for appreciation, satisfaction or any other need but they never crave for love. So whatever we did was just a controlled activity formulated by other people. Was it just an arbitrary event lost in space and time?
No it cant be. I dont believe in destiny! Right now i see you right infront of me wearing that t-shirt which is asking me the question -" Do you believe in Destiny?"
I muster some courage and take a satiating long sip of my coffee and get back to work.
Some things i thought i would never be able to feel i have felt in this phase. I never acknowledged simple things and subtle emotions. As a matter of fact i used to discredit them as weakness but as they say time is a ruthless but a great teacher. I am happy that it has taught me some of things very early which i always wanted.
So how would i define love when its definition has evolved inside me over and over. Well first when you are in love you can never know that really but as you realise that a feeling of appreciation more dominantly admiration and deep respect grows inside you for your love. But as this goes on;you begin to see colours and loose sense of time. The more you get in to this feeling the more you want to let go yourself inside it. Love takes all over you and mind begins to create fictious events of your jubliation in a variety of ways. A stage come when you supercede the reality and create a larger than life image of your partner. This is idolation. Now when such a big and yet light image is created the realilty is not in anyway near to this imagination. That was why i missed you even if i was talking to you. Your one spoken word was sufficient for me to think about you for entire day.
But when you find another explaination to this definition you see that love can not be received from outside. Unless i dont feel it inside me i can never get it from you. So as a matter of fact no one craves for love -its wrong, it just canthappen. People can crave for appreciation, satisfaction or any other need but they never crave for love. So whatever we did was just a controlled activity formulated by other people. Was it just an arbitrary event lost in space and time?
No it cant be. I dont believe in destiny! Right now i see you right infront of me wearing that t-shirt which is asking me the question -" Do you believe in Destiny?"
I muster some courage and take a satiating long sip of my coffee and get back to work.
Embodiment
I will enhance the capabilities of my mind to a level that will make even a Pro squint when standing face to face with me. Perfection is my goal and competition is I . Arjun adopted the technique of embodiment of the goal to achieve it. When you chase someone passionately so much, you become a synonym of goal itself. So if Arjun wants to hit the bird he must see only its eye so that he embodies the goal itself!
Whenever a true fighter is called upon in the ring he fights for Glory not for the materialistic Goal because that is for the Plebian. In the war if Troy Achillies fought to Avenge the death of his beloved cousin and Hectare fought for Glory,although he knew that the death is inevitable and irrevocable.
History has coronated Hectare to the Zenith and Achilles a Shooting Star. I will pierce through the destiny and draw blood; that will be the time when it will symbolically represent my conviction for the rising winning over the competitions. Even if that throne would be of Skulls and deads i wont mind having my gulp of Abrosia; gleeing into the Glory.
Mahakaal himself will shower his blessings.
Whenever a true fighter is called upon in the ring he fights for Glory not for the materialistic Goal because that is for the Plebian. In the war if Troy Achillies fought to Avenge the death of his beloved cousin and Hectare fought for Glory,although he knew that the death is inevitable and irrevocable.
History has coronated Hectare to the Zenith and Achilles a Shooting Star. I will pierce through the destiny and draw blood; that will be the time when it will symbolically represent my conviction for the rising winning over the competitions. Even if that throne would be of Skulls and deads i wont mind having my gulp of Abrosia; gleeing into the Glory.
Mahakaal himself will shower his blessings.
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