Physchedelic Performances

Its my quest to strive intellectual accomplishments step by step and steadily via experimentation, appreciatio n and recognisation of conscious and unconcious developments inside and around me; i have so far learned so little i feel. Is it in reading, when i read 'catcher in the rye' i thought its was the moment of truth, when i did a free fall in the heavenly manali again i felt that pang, that tickle, when i saw the final speech of al pacino in the scent of a woman i thought its extreme intelligence and candidness. I saw you and found you in layers beneath and i remembered those magical lines-
" Yeh teri sadadili mar na dale mujhko'. For others you may be a physical entity but for me you are very real and a simple soul no matter how complex is the communication. I love you for what you are even if its triviality such as your moods so changing inside but no matter how hard you try to cover them through your face. You are a good actor but you see i am no less than a curious bystander! -Looking agape from a distance wanting to be in your everysecond, wanting to know what do you do most simple things may be how do you hold a pen or what do you do first when you wake up, may be you look at your hands or rub your eyes or touch your hairs.

Yes i am a  by stander , a lay person which i am now in your physical existence because of the irony of the situation now i have become so; i some times laugh, i sometimes wince in pain then the next moment i become determined and stoic.

I am that on looker who looks at you every moment may through a glass pane invisible but try to look around when you walk on the street because i am looking at you intensely, keenly but lovingly.

Now i know why they say that you 'fall' in love but i am rising and this weightlessness is a very contented , satisfactory and happy feeling. Now this world is more orangy, spurious and shiny; i have coated my blue with this new colour.

So baby remember this now somebody is looking agape at you with my ice cream melting and my eyes fixated on you and only you. So now you must feel concious the way you smile back at me when i stare inside you!!!!!!
happy loving

-Anonymous Onlooker