Teenage Dream- A Rewind

Love & Hate are the faces of the same coin. I cant believe that a guy like me is writing on the subject who considered it frivolous and irrational is so engrossed in the same that can't stop wallowing into its majestic lukewarm matter.

I will also see how long will it will be like this and i have no complains though i have kicked on the wall a hundred times on the same. Buts thats me. I will love you like they do it in fiction. I will dance with you till the end of my life. If you think this is overreaction then you are true but how cant stop doing so when i have realised that you are inseperable and indispensible for my own existence. I will love you like a fiction artists manifests through its immortal characters. If its true that devotees can see their God in extreme meditative and true devotion then it must also be true that i will find you.

No time is not the point of discussion here and you would say that ultimately you are static and will come true to me n its just a matter of time. Dear Kiddo, neither time has nor it will make us older nor we will miss all the moments we could have gained if you were here for real; because we are frozen in time. Just as if this is an Ice Age. Just like you click hibernation button on your computer screen. You and I are just in a long and dreamy slumber and when we wake up you will find me in your arms.

Pardon my wishful thinking, but kiddo i have loved you from the core of my heart and I know my-self enough to find this truth , so i see through your eyes the world of yours. My longing of you doesnt last for more than a second but what stupid is this second it comes over and over again!
So i see you inside me most of the times.

I know this seems like a teenage dream and for your smile I have played myself a Kid most of the times. Dear God if you are listening please ensure we win the final lap and dont you dare to let me, her and our love lose because if did so you know your son is a fighter and he will make sure he wins. Hey God, dont take this other wise but its a request please do it and i know its not a big deal for you because i have heard a lot of people saying you as All powerful and All knowing.For now i am on a mission so its your moral responsibility to fill up the place for me. Ok, i know i am grown up so i will stop here.

Hey a few lines for you so just recite them in your mind if you feel like it.


"You think I'm funny

When I tell the punchline wrong

I know you get me

So I let my walls come down, down



Before you met me

I was a wreck but things

Were kinda heavy

You brought me to life

Now every February

You'll be my Valentine, Valentine



Let's go all the way tonight

No regrets, just love

We can dance, until we die

You and I, will be young forever



You make me feel

Like I'm livin' a

Teenage dream


The way you turn me on

I can't sleep

Let's run away and

Don't ever look back,

Don't ever look back



My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now honey I believe

This is real

So take a chance and

Don't ever look back,

Don't ever look back

I finally found you

My missing puzzle piece

I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight


No regrets, just love

We can dance, until we die

You and I, will be young forever



You make me feel

Like I'm livin' a

Teenage dream

The way you turn me on

I can't sleep

Let's run away and

Don't ever look back,

Don't ever look back"



My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

So take a chance and

Don't ever look back,

Don't ever look back



I'mma get your heart racing

In my skin tights

A Matter of Choice

Its interesting to observe the decsion making of different Individuals. Let me throw a question to begin with. Supposingly if you are given a proposition that you can have 2 packets of Lays Chips of your favorite flavour now or if you ignore it you can get 4 packets of the same a day after. Now if this isn't exact and real situation you may be temped to say that you would go for 4 packets next day. But if a day after you are again told that if you wait for another day you can get 6 packets, What will you do?

The answer doesnt connotates that there is a flaw in choosing but the same depends on a greater extent on the personality which evolves in a period of time. Short term gratification is easy and gives immediate pleasure. Thats why long battles makes the opponents weary on a mental level, ofcourse physical friction is there. So perseverance is a test of the character and the one who can adjust to it has an extra point.

Science if applied has very beautiful insights which do come handy a lot of times. Some time before i had attended a conference which had witnessed very imminent speakers ranging from HR heads from various industries. Their common emphasis to skill development was the unique ability of a leader to handle ambiguity.

Ambiquity generally inflicts in form of a sudden change in a variety of ways which many of us might have experienced. For eg. You lose fuel on a deserted highway in the middle of the night or a sudden act of voilence or treachery from a confidante etc.

As a matter of fact we generally resist change and sometimes even if it is for our own good. See the automobile industy .

Contd. in next post....

Yuppie!!!

ya ba daba dooo!!!

I received the fresh copy of a new book of the same writer whose previous book i had edited/commented. Just now a courier guy delivered it. It squeaky clean and smells like charcoal.
Cant wait to read it just now.

yssss

The Ultimate Rejoice

I believe our our efforts will shine someday sooner. Every passing moment is tumultous and fills me with you and you only. It cant be unchanged and this is irreversible truth. I know sometimes when you find it you may be in different state of mind happy or longing and sometimes intense. I just hope that my longing doesnt become obnoxious and this would be worst nightmare ever.
Well i cant stop myself from creating fictious set of events involving us all the time. This fact may be redundant but it is static. Though what you do you feel at this very moment is only a function of my intuition yet i just you can be complacent by being informed that its same here.
Our set of environment are different and every day is also different and so may be the people around us. Our day to day work and attitude towards it may be different but the truth is that the sun and sky above us are the same. This is not philosophy but again a static truth.
No matter how hard this matter tries to create spaces but i'll see you inside of me anytime i want and even the most powerful force cant stop me from doing me that.
The All powerful and Omnipresent is a party to my convictions for you and its upon Him how He will make arrangements but i know He has to do it.
I am Stubborn and ready to give whatever it takes. Whatever i have learned from this time is that nothing come easy, i had to give tests for that. I am not afraid and also you must be fearless.
Your wishes will not go in vain.
I will get towards the Goal and when i achieve them i will rejoice in His lap along with you.
Help me to sustain this Confidence and just call my name i'll get it somehow.

Romantics on a short notice was her speciality!

Some people have this special ability to find a fictious anecdote at a very short time. You see paucity of time is the mother of Creativity. Whether they are Ad films or a witty student trying to escape from a punishment. You get little time to impress your date. Interview really lasts only for some minutes. So what goads creative minds are their ability to think out of the box and extraterrestrial ability to read mind. They genrally throw it on demand of the situation. Stand up comedians of course do some homework beforehand but on real time they quickly have to read minds. 

I read a short story recently and coudnt resist to catch the phrase used by the writer mentioned just in the end of it- Romantics on a short notice was her speciality!

Well,people who are adept at it are generally have in them beacuse of sheer practice. Spontaneity is the pecise word for this 'skill'. I am referring this as a skill because it sometimes is quite helpful for people to sell their ideas and quardon off the quandary. Also for managers this helps as they frequently have to make people understand complex things in simple illustrations framed sometimes in fraction of second. They naturally pick up the thinks from day to day life and frame a make-shift example.

Well this is the positive side and i hate to be a equivocalist when i day that coin has two faces. On one hand a person quipped with spontaneity is witter and good humor types but on the other hand this can  becomes a habit which is hard to resist and forces the subject into unnecessary risk taking situations.
Say they would generally destest any kind of preperation for presentaions and similar events.
Another thing is that some people can take their account of version as overzealous and a bit far from actual things.
Narcissism is also an aspect of such people where they would rather enjoy their lonliness because they keep themselves engaged by creating fictious events with simple looking things. A famous cartoon strip by waterman- Calvin and Hobbes depicts its protagonist as a hypercative kid who does exacly the same i am talking about.
According to me nothing is good and bad about personalities and afterall goodness is a very relative and perceptive term. So in all spontaneity makes a person witty, sharp,creative and amicable but he or she has to resist his/her temptation of applying themselves carefully sometimes with different set of people.

Line Following Robot- Parental Advisory Explicit Content

Ankit alias Gogi had achieved considerable success in practical application in electronics discipline as he designed a ciliched yet ingenous robot in the first year itself which followed a line when it walked apart from other obscene activities we made it do. Anyways the day came and his electronics circuitry was complete and my work on the robot him with just a couple of bearings and a bit mechanics was over.
But we soon got bored of it after all the fun in it was asking me a very simple question. So i posed it to Gogi.
" So this project is successful?"
" Yaa. Quite contrary to my belief. "
"It was fun"
"Yuupp. What are you upto."
" See its success because it specifically follows orders and executes orders"
" Dude it doesnt hava a brain of its own. All it has is a Artificial Intelligence provided by us"
"So in a way it is programmed to do this and follow orders precisely. I mean this is a parameter of its success."
" Ya atleast Prof. Kulkarni says so"
" MMmm. Gogi remember that novel we read. Operation mind control."
"Ya. It was good. Wait a sec. OMG"
"I think you just got an aha experience"
" Ya dude. Spectacular. I mean the concept is Awesome. I got what do you mean to say"

Thats what is called resonance i.e. when frequency matches. With us this phenomenon was commonplace. His ability to imagine and respond quickly is awesome.

" Rahul, we can combine the ideas to present a very enlightening case and thereafter a paper on it. But we would need some reflection on human mind. Not Biological but Psychological inputs."
"Not a problem."
"So set an objective. It must be very basic but real catchy"
"Ok. lets go for a ride."
"What. Now"
"Ya. I have to think"
" Ya sure"
After lunch session. 12 of us in hotel were playing counter strike. I joined and ankit too came over.
On the microphone he asked.
"thought of some thing"
"Roger"
" What is it?"
" Title of paper will be LFRobot- Parental advisory explicit content"
" Are you physco! It means obscene content. "
" Hey you drink women horlics so you are a bigger psycho"
" Dude log out this game and come over. And i dont drink women horlics."
I came over with some print outs. We constructively discussed for an hour or so and rest is history.
I kicked the door, the usual flag that i am there.
"Gogi read this first."
" What is it.:"
" Read it, i made it yesterday"
" No. No way its very harsh and crital. Idea is good but it mocks a certain section of society and is very caustic"
" Dude i dont want be rude but tell me one thing isn't it true "
" Ya its true absolutely but unappropiate for general public reading"
" Dude it reflects the society. Remember every new idea or school of thought is offensive. The language is direct but not offensive."
"Ok we will go for it"

"But not today"
" Ok fk it"

I miss u so much!!!

A time came when i had diverted all my energy events on all you. All i did was to wait to talk to you. But that was past. Sometimes it happens that i just want to tell you what i am feeling now and i feel the same in your case. But then its not a fairy tale. So all i need is that you come in my dream today and talk me out so that i can sort out my mind and emerge stonger.
So that i can come in flying colors for you and me.


I bet you will come and 1 pm will just be fine!

Good night!

i'll be waiting.

Shakespearean Tragedy

Aditya and I were sitting in our trademark coffee shop along the road which is famous as 56 shops. It was a rainy day and i gleefully asked him out that day after being confined since morning.
And as it is true with best friends you just seep in the joy of their company even there is nothing much to talk about.
Aditya is a very simple guy. He is not into mod clothing and he believes in high thinking. Also is a bit idealistic but completely inside the limits of rationality. Anyways times was going slow and this season our city had grown beautiful than ever. He is not that much into reading but he follows lots of current affair and politics. Strong in ethics and sensible in character. He has a charisma of a perculiar kind which is the reason of his huge fan following in the college and outside.
Self dependent and progressive is intermixed with his attitude. But there is a thing with people those who are not God-fearing. They dont discredit their wrongdoings or attribute their success to God. Whatever they reap is their own an that sometimes makes it difficult for them to be happy all the time.
However their value system may be good its just they want to be responisble for their actions.

Aditya order for two expresso full and i just figured out a place to sit for a while. He broke the ice about talking weather and rain. I could see something stopping in his throat so i cut him off in middle.
" Adi you dont have to talk weather with me; i m not a girl you are meeting first time on a date or something"
" ya  rahul i know. Its just. I dont know. I just dont feel like to speak anything"
" Then dont speak and you dont have to. Just sit back and relax your coffee"
After whole 10 minutes of silence and near end of our extremely hot coffee Adi came up with something.
" Rahul are you again dreaming?"
"Ya i like to and what were you thinking"
" I mm was thinking what is the logic of Luck factor. I have been thrown out of 3 interviews one by one and you never wanted a job and see you got selected in the first company. You are of different branch and we have almost same aggregate."
" Adi i like you to-the-point and no-shit attitude man.  See Adi Luck simply doesnt exist. Its just that oppotunity meeting tight situation creating success. May be those guys dont deserve you. If you want to grow you must think about the mistakes you made and not that stupid luck. It wont take you anywhere."
" Rahul luck does exist man. I can give you a hundred accounts to prove it."
" Adi.. Ok let me prove it otherwise. See even if Luck does exist it is wise to downplay its existence as it bears its fruit only the prerequisite condition of preparedness is fullfilled."
" May be yes. Dude where did you get this argumentation style?"
"Not Luck. Its practice and because i love this field i work on it. Thats it. You tell me now. You okay"
" Ya but i dont know i lately have felt a almost all the things are simultaneously going wrong with me. What do they call it .. but its aweful situation."
"Its shakespearean Tragedy"
"What..."
" Ya dude. All central characters die in a shakespeare tradegy."
" I dont know what are you talking about?"
" Why was Romeo and Juliet a major hit. "
" It was Romantic"
" My ass romatic. It was because he Shakespeare very intellegently introduced Characters and manouvered incidents with just in time approach. Like wise in the last scene when Romeo thought Juliet was dead Romeo takes poision for himself and when he dies just after that Juliet wakes up kisses him so as to take some poison for herslelf and then when it doesnt work she stabs herself.
I mean everything was happening just in time in a perfect sequence generaing emotions and agony in the audience"
" Dude that what is precisely called romance. "
" What"
"Rahul you have to experience a certain emotion inorder to interpret it and by your cold dissection of that drama i can say that you have discounted romance"
" I donno. May you say better because you have been in a stable relationship for a long time."
"2 years rahul. Its a long time to feel it"
" What 2 years. How did you manage it. I mean how can you manage all the tantrums which girls throw every now and then."
"Even if i tell you  now it will be difficult for you to understand. So first feel it firsthand and then we will talk about it."
" Lets wait and see. I dont think it will happen in my case"
" Shit happens. You Bet!"

First Thing Is Always First

First Ride on a bike( Rajdoot)
First Slap in the school by Principal( V grade)
First Crush( I standard)
First ....

Well well first is always first and that what is very close to us. See first time i got lost in a fair when i knew what is missing actually and that too for whole 2 hours.
So that first thing feeling is special no matter how ill fated it is. I rememeber when i was walking late in the night outside the college pathway early on.  I was talking on the phone and 2 bike riders came close to me very swiftly whom i didnt notice. They came from opposite end and one of them gave me a nice square punch in my stomach. I was shocked and hurt bad. I was not able to breathe and lie on the road for whole 10 min. I just could see their face or bike's number. That was first few days in the college. Welcome to the Jungle!

First things first. I then went to the hostel and told my friends about it and next day we found those assholes and then was fist big hitting some of us did. Those people were shopowners accross the block. So that was first in college.

Neekhra called up yesteday and said the same thing i seriosly need after a long time(6 months)

" Wasssssssaaaaap!"
"Wassssaaaap!'
" I thought you were dead"
" Very close dude! I literally went into a truck last night and today i almost had killed two guys with my car"
" So you re alive"
"That's bad!"
" You tell me, how's life"
" Fkn Awesome just now"
" Why is your funti dead"
" No Asshole i got GOA tickets"
" Holy Christ. Dont you fn kidding me!"
" No man i am just right every word. i got some pending amount ready just now and i thought i should call tommy"
" Tell me time and date, i ' ll be there. Its been since i was 18 i am working and now i have to burn some cash neekhra you just proved i havent wasted my BE with you guys"
" What are you doing these days anyways"
" I was sick mentally because of some Unindentified reasons lately and this stupid TV shows had almost taken my MOJo"
" Well then GOA!"
" Finally the G-spot"
" Fkn Awesome"
"Kerela Ayurvedic Massage"
" Yup and the bombastic Beach"
" I cant wait to heat Club music"

"Neekhra i am planning to stay and live there itself. What do you say"
" Abe first lets inspect what's there and may be in 40's i'll plan something"
" Abe tu thakela ho gaya apni funti jaisa"
" Sharme GOA"
" Haan be ab phone Rakh"
" Ya happy Festival Rakhi wala"
" neekhra tujhe pata main rakhi wale din tadipar rahta hoon to what festival"
" Sahi hai. bye"
" yup. You are the man"

Lose Yourself

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity


To seize everything you ever wanted in one moment

Would you capture it? Or just let it slip?



Yeah,

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy

There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti

He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready

To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgetting

What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud

He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out

He's choking how, everybody's joking now

The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!

Snap back to reality, oh there goes gravity

Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked

He's so mad, but he won't give up that

Easy, no

He won't have it, he knows his whole back's to these ropes

It don't matter, he's dope

He knows that, but he's broke

He's so stagnant that he knows

When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's

Back to the lab again yo

This whole rhapsody

He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him


You better lose yourself in the music, the moment


You own it, you better never let it go go

You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo (x2)



(Verse 2)

This soul's escaping, through this hole that is gaping

This world is mine for the taking

Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order

A normal life is boring, but superstardom's close to post mortem

It only grows harder, homey grows hotter

He blows it's all over, these hoes is all on him

Coast to coast shows, he's know as the Globetrotter

Lonely roads, God only knows

He's grown farther from home, he's no father

He goes home and barely knows his own daughter

But hold your nose 'cause here goes the cold water

These hoes don't want him no mo', he's cold product

They moved on to the next schmoe who flows

He nose dove and sold nada

So the soap opera is told and unfolds

I suppose it's old partner, but the beat goes on

Da da dum da dum da da


You better lose yourself in the music, the moment


You own it, you better never let it go go

You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo (x2)



(Verse 3)

No more games, I'ma change what you call rage

Tear this motherfucking roof off like two dogs caged

I was playing in the beginning, the mood all changed

I been chewed up, and spit out, and booed off stage

But I kept rhyming and stepwritin' the next cypher

Best believe somebody's paying the pied piper

All the pain inside amplified by the

Fact that I can't get by with my nine to five

And I can't provide the right type of life for my family

'Cause man, these Goddamn food stamps don't buy diapers

And it's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life

And these times are so hard and it's getting even harder

Trying to feed and water my seed, plus

Teeter totter caught up between being a father and a prima donna

Baby mama drama's screaming on and

Too much for me to wanna

Stay in one spot, another day of monotony

Has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail

I've got to formulate a plot or end up in jail or shot

Success is my only motherfucking option, failure's not

Mom, I love you, but this trailer's got to go

I cannot grow old in Salem's Lot

So here I go is my shot.

Feet fail me not 'cause maybe the only opportunity that I got

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment


You own it, you better never let it go go

You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo (x2)





You can do anything you set your mind to, man

F-F-F-Falling

I am suspended upside down by a rope tied around my legs, 1000 fts above the ground and its very windy. High Volume Coldplay Clocks is playing in my ears and its very pulsating. The swift piano notes are tickling my spine. Heart has to work harder to pump the blood against the gravity so my face turns red. A high pressure air is striking my eyes but i dont close them so they shed water. My cheeks are fluttering as cool air gets inside my mouth and tongue gets dry with a icy taste on its surface.

I am falling into the depth continuously but now Stereo Love plays in my ears and i just rejoice its harmonica. " Oh! nothing else compares!!!"

But i dont reach the surface and its been some time like this suddenly i begin to see some ground. But it was snow white. No wait a minute its a sea. At the same instant i struck with a splash of water. With a thuddering sound i pierce the chilled water at the top. 'Du Hast' began to play now. I am illusioned by its heavy drum beats.

I overcome the shock and i now open my eyes. The water is warmer now in the depth but i cant breath. My heart rate calms down and so do I. Time Stops and seconds becomes immaterial.

James Blunt begins to sing the last lines. " I am so Hollow, I am so Hollow baby"

Its been some time here like this and the morning alarm reminds me that i got some work to do.

WAKE UP!!!

A Rush of Blood to the Head

Now when everything flows inward and reason substanciate to the whole truth, it feels nice to comply to it. Its good that i have a rational approach to find it that is observation, questioning, generating hypothesis, finding conclution and then applying them.
The source is inside and its a very satisfying feeling to appreciate it and then life. Science says that there is nothing like hot or cold, colour, bad or good weather. They all are molecules vibrating at different speeds and other are electromagnatic waves. Its just a matter of perception of human eye.

Shakespeare in Tempest contends that we all are living in a Dream. Buddha the enlightened one suggested no rituals and idol worship because that power which one is looking to find is really inside and the same fact must be celebrated in every soul.

I am not biased or not even hopelessly romatic when i say that sumtotal of all intangible expressions; may be emotions and feelings are generated from inside but if fail to appreciate them on a larger perspective when we try to give expression to them in tangible ways and subjects.

This is fairly important to segregate the most confused set of emotions say love and attachment; Anger and Extreme Hunger and so on. If one wants to find the difference between these subtle and complex behavioural aspects then the subject can 'numerically' discern them on the basis of time factor.

Its just a matter of observation that a feeling of loathing or disgust can be attributed to a unfavorible situation. Now the density of such feeling can be measured by the amount of time and intensity with which it haunts.

Attachment is temporal and exists on account of a give and take relationship. In corporate setting i was friends with scores of people and seriously i enjoy the company of many of them. I also did a project to measure their emotions and it was happily taken anyways but that is temporal and after some time its quite natural to remain the same way. Its sensible.

Some people or objects may be just cant be erased or lessen in intensity in the mind because the attachment really exceeds to the next level. Its also true that 2 minds can not be same and hence the way they perceive things is also different. Thats why mythology has suggested to direct that eternal feeling to the Perfect, Divine and Intangible. Its is quite plausible philosophy and has a irreversible and strong relief effect on mind. So the pertinent question in this matter is that a higher level eternal feeling must me made universal and one must try to find it inside. Once that is achieved mind can see Colors, Life, Music, Beauty and feel Kaliedoscopic pattern of happy positive emotions every moment.

The same is compared to Heaven sometimes. Renunciation of gratification of senses and practices of celibacy are suggested just to reach this level but it is not a neccessary condition according to Enlightened ones.

So Eat Good, Sleep Good, Think Good, Feel Good and appreciate art and life.

Love

The journey which started way back quite a time ago has made me understand a new dimention. I crave for you every second even since i dont know and i surely know deep inside that you must also be feeling the same if not less. But in my quest to understand what has been happening to me all this time was all the way very important to me. First what i did i thought it was immaturish and i also regretted my actions as that was not me. That signifies that i actually have not known me all this time. I was trying to find you outside. In your book, its pages your words, bits and pieces of memories.
Sometimes i would think how can i be sure that i am really craving you? This is an important question for me and it has to be answered by the self.

I am human and my humane acts to find you reminded me of that fact.I used to search you on the streets and that was stage I. Then i wanted to hear you;see your image and feel you. That was stage II.
All this was ruthless and was inapporpriate for answering my question. What should i do?

I plunged myself in to travelling wide spaces alone and think while i drive as i solve most of things while doing it. Never really got the answer but some times i used to get close.
Then i began reading non-fictions, mythology and philosophies. They were of somehelp in the way that i should really reflect upon my self even more. I should understand me first.

Then i began to try hard to calm down by closing eyes and i must tell you its most difficult thing to do. I tried first for some minutes and then an hour and still i am no where.

I knew i was losing time and it has to be done as soon as possible. Then i read all 119 posts i had written to you one by one, word by word, letter by letter.

When i write to you i never read it back but today i did and the answer was between the lines. Then i sit back quitely an hour or so and relaxed in the void.

I found you inside and i didnt find you, i found a feeling which reminded me of you. It was very subtle and i became happy.

One thing you have in Abundance

Remember honey the good old days when once you asked me what is that one good thing that i like in you and i said you have it in abundance.
Intellectual Capital
And you naughtily replied "What?"
Well i got an article i would like to share with you which is about the same.
Philosophy of Intellect

On a chariot there is a driver and a passenger. The passenger has no knowledge or control of the chariot's journey, nor does he interact directly with the driver. In the driver's hands are reins attached to the bridles of several horses. With the reins, the driver is guiding the direction of the chariot, which is continuously moving on a path.




The chariot is a metaphor for the human body. On the chariot (body) is a passenger, who represents the the soul. The driver is the intellect. The soul doesn't have knowledge or control over the decisions the intellect is making, but due to the presence of the soul, the intellect has life energy and is active. The reins and bridles represent the mind. The horses represent the senses, which are constantly gathering sense impressions in the world. The path represents our human life.



This metaphor is a recurrent theme in Hindu philosophy. Our senses are constantly gathering impressions of the external environment. These are transferred to the mind. The mind then transfers them to the intellect for analysis. A decision is made if something serves our self-interest or not, if it is desirable or detrimental, good or bad. Accordingly the intellect decides to move in a particular direction. Like the charioteer, the intellect controls the direction of our life through its understanding and decisions.



What role does the soul play? In Hindu philosophy, we learn that apart from enlivening all our material "machinery" (body, sense, mind and intellect), the soul is also giving a message to the driver (intellect). The soul has a natural and continuous desire for divine unity. It expresses this longing every moment. A reflection of this enters the intellect in a distorted form. The intellect simply feels: "Something is missing." This subtle discontent and need for something more, combined with its current understanding, causes the intellect to direct the chariot of our existence in a particular direction to find happiness.



On its own, the intellect doesn't understand the source of this inner discontentment. This is one of the greatest unsolvable riddles of human existence. Knowledge of the source of and also the solution to our inner discontentment has to be explained to us. The answer lies in spiritual knowledge found in Hindu philosophy -- because the origin of our longing is spiritual and divine. The source of and the remedy for this longing is described by true Saints who have realized divine happiness. Three factors have to come into alignment for true spiritual progress:



1.The soul's longing



2.A true Saint's knowledge



3.Your intellect's understanding

When we join our intellect with the intellect of a true Guru, we can properly guide the chariot of our life on a path to divine happiness

Allah Ka Noor

To fight a long battle one needs to keep a character that signifies time untill someone can be broken. Its a fast changing world and its not that this is a figurative sentence. The every word related to it is true to its core. We resist change. Its a human tendency to resist change.
I broke down one day.
So what?
Rise up. Just like that.
So i keep reminding me my goals and the place i deserve to be. I cut off from everyone and its not like yesteryears. How can it be? Everything is changing.
It happens sometimes that i cant stand myself in the mirror cause it keeps on telling what i was; whereas i want to see what i can be.
I am bored of asking that rhetorical question-" Why me?"
" Why do i have to keep proving me all the time?"
" Why i have set my aspirations so high?"

Then i smile back to that situtation telling that big rewards dont come easy and may be its a little more tough in your case but anyhow you have to get what you deserve.

If some one asks me why are you doing all this, i have a story to tell them to answer it.
'I went my school one evening and i though it would all be kinda a long forgotten story. I mean who remembers that I even existed there. Many come and go. So my attachments for all i did in that place may have been well washed out like you wipe off a slate to write afresh.
I went inside i saw a watchman pretty old. I recognised him he was the same! I tried not to pose myself as someone who he should recognise so i just passed by and not looking at him.
As i walked on some distance some one called me by my name. 'Rahul beta'. He was that watchman. And i instantly replied 'haan Ramu dada'.
I told him that a very little has changed in this school and he told me how much the school has changed. After some talking i went out for a stroll inside the campus. Its all like being there yesterday with just one exception that everything was smaller than i had anticipated. May be i have grown taller.

After i moved out i just cant believe at what i saw. My name on a big notice board showing chronological sequence of student leaders.
School Captain batch 2004- Rahul Sharma
And i got my motivation!!! '

Some people will never understand what that means to me and other will state it as materialistic but seriosly those small rewards here and there comprise my life and for them i am ready to set more and more tough goals and sweat till i am nauseated. Beacause i know that i am like that Fakir in the Hindi poem text book, i donno which class, who want to see only one thing - 'Allah ka Noor'.

So yes i am also ready to weather in any conditions and my reward is ' Allah Ka Noor '!!!

The 'Aha' Experience

Its been a complete 3 days we are in Gwalior and ended up almost all the important spots like Quila and Scindhiya Palace but still we couldnt get enough or a wholesome experience. In particular me.
I usually dont have a penchant for Caves, architecture or monuments. I mean that was what i had gathered from my experience. You take Elephentia Caves , i liked the boat ride in the sea but not the caves. I had been a dozen times to Mandu but what i like is the scenic arrangments but not architecture really. Same goes for Buland Darwaza in Fatehpur Sikri and Agra Fort. Sanchi, mmmm i like the road ride of 25 kms north east from Bhopal to there. Bhojpur, i guess 25 times and still counting but i go straight to river there. Then what, Bhim-Betka! I am a Vertigo so i like to test myself with the huge rocks and depth which encompasses there.
I know many historians will almost kill me if i said, i liked the night out on marine drive in Mumbai than all the above. So i wont do my opinion public.

But there is an expection. And without exceptions individual behaviour woudnt be that exciting. Would it be?
So Nikhra, Daswani,Dr. Marsh,Anshul Jain and I were in the long queue at security check-in for TajMahal. Though we all were a perfect team to land up in famous Agra Asylum instead!
No..no. were pretty decent and all. But the way we all were dressed made us look real tourists. Nikhra is a good singer and all but i insist him to keep shut most of the time. Dr. Marsh suits up to his Adiwasi reputation in holi dance fest and thats the reason for the reverent denotation 'Dr.' came from for which he endows me forever. Daswani, what can i say? Ok let me simplify it. Have you ever felt a strong urge to hit some one  without reason just because you dont like their face or may be anything else. Well I do feel that a lot in case of Daswani. Irony is that he thinks that i am a very good friend of him but inside i know i am looking for a moment every now and then to hit him just like that.

Ok i know  i am mean! But they are also not proverbial " dhudh ka dhula" .
So where was I. Ya in the queue!
So we checked in after hustling with the crowd and though the next thing is Taj Mahal. I particularly wasnt that interested but you know we were in Agra and it being among 7 wonders and lots of hush hush! That's why i was there.
I was loosing my patience more that ever beacause it was a complete 30 minutes walking distance we had to cover and still i dont see a sign of the monument. I would banter Dr. Marsh for taking me here and ridiculing him by my questions about where is it? How far is it? How much do we have to walk? Is it in this town or somewhere else?
Neekhra was laughing and doing his singing stuff in between. I just didnt look a Daswani. Anshul is a cool dude and was also irritated like me. It was so hot that day.

But we approached a archaic entrance which was supposed to be the gateway for the monument. I went closer to it and what i saw is inexplicable in words! The complete view of Taj- Mahal in front of me. Majestic, Wonderful and out of the world experience!
I couldnt have ever imagined that a man made thing could be that Beautiful. The 'Aha' Experience. All of my friends and foreigners had the same look when they saw it. Unbelievable.

How can some one absorb it in a glance. It took me complete 5 hours to seep it into my mind.
The Best!!!

Facade of Imagination

Aditya after coming from office anxiously stepped towards his new abode which he shifted recently into; located on the outskirts of the city for which his love was incessant. Though the apartment was cozy with mod interiors what he really liked about it was its spledid balcony which gives a wholesome view of the growing city. The city has answered some very pertinent questions about his personality and cradled Aditya every time he needed a motherly support. He grew as a man here,quite contrast to a boy who had inbridled so much of energy. He loved all the squares and the pace of the city, which he coyishly called its hearbeat.

Neverthless its quie relaxing to feel the breeze in the balcony with a strong cup of coffee after the dinner. All he has is his imaginations and a laptop to to feed that into it. While looking on to the hospital opposite to his apartment he some how fixated his eyes on it.

He had quite whole some months previously but now when all that has passed what remains is the memories. Its all like a very fullfilling dream. But the problem is that he had enlivened that dream!
But he started writing. It takes him sometimes complete nights to compose a 3 paragraph letter!
And everyday he wrote it. Never did he miss to write a letter a day to her. No matter how busy he was or tired he still did it.

I cant write no more he would say that every day to himself. But even if it be a facade of imagination, so be it. He wont deter no matter how painful is the agony of bearing that thought.

But the poor soul thinks that she might answer them one day, may be an alphabet some day even by mistake that happens. He has that hope. He read me one song that he wrote for her among many others.
I asked him that can i borrow this one for you. And he happily gave it to me.
So here it goes.
" Look how the stars, look how they shine for you
Oh what a thing to do, to write for you....

Feel how the breeze has wore a cool frock for you
Oh what a trick they do, cause they want follow you..

I came away, i came away so far from you
So that to be closer to you
Oh what thing to do

I made up a hundred stories in my mind
About the way you would call my name
And  they are all so yellow

Look how the clouds, look how they want to hug you,
But when you dont turn up, they all cry for you

Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you!!"

Panacea

State the first thought which occurs to you in the morning?

Its kinda weird that when i woke up today i had two songs playing back to back in my head as i completed the daily chores.

First, the beat goes like this. 'ting ting ding ding ding da ding ding ding ding, tanaana tanaa'
Soon i got what sense that made....
" Love is  a firey Ring, i fell into a ring of fire" by johny cash.

Second one was a very popular song from Md. Rafi for film dosti way back into black and while.
" Awaz mein na dunga, Awaz mein na dunga"

Then i have to find the connection obviously! But i didnt do that today. Not today. Because every day and every free second when i dont engage my mind this shit keep happening to me. So why do the diagnosis when you already know the disease. Its quite ironic that i also know the cure. Damn..it.

Keep moving keep moving that what i say to me all the time. After all the places i go i take the disease with me. Stupidity structs on me when i try to cure myself whereas the panacea is somewhere close but yet too distant.

The Inception

Christopher Nolan has made only 10 films so far and they include Memento, The Batman Returns, The Dark knight and the recently ,The Inception.


After going through his list i also found that he was also the director of Insomina, a crime thriller starring Al Pacino. I tried to find the regularities in the pattern on IMDB.com and got the answer as more of a reflex action. His films though ficition but remains very close to the reality and celebrates the potential of the Human Mind. The Inception for an Instance introduces an innovative and dangerous perception altering weapons i.e. altering of dreams. The Batman Begins was the formative strory of how the city Gotham got Batman, who acted as a filthy rich brat in his real role. I saw this movie on the premiere show at Velocity and walked on foot from Regal Square to Khajrana Square, but after i saw the movie i knew it was worth it. The story of how Batman conquered his fear of 'Bats' by living with them!

In the The Dark Knight, Nolan crosses all bounds by utlizing Heath Ledger as 'Joker' who was other wise wasted in his previous films. The Joker again uses his game to break the spirit of the new born hero 'Harvery Dent' in the town so as to introduce Chaos and annihilate hope.

Insomnia takes you to a thriller which gives a seasoned detective sleepless nights while he investigates a murderer who is actually trying to win his mind!

Memento, By far is the best in the lot which is highly critically acclaimed because of its innovative editing and excellent script. Here the protagonist is avenging death though he is sufferent from a brain mafunction due to which he cant form new memories.
 
Now eagerly waiting for the Inception!!!

Wishful Thinking

Another Evening with soft clouds spread haphazardly as if they have fallen out from the bucket of a restive maid who was getting late for home as it was already getting dark. She then might have left them as it is and hurried back to home. After she might have reached home safely her mother would have twin emotions of worry and happiness at the same time which manifests into moisture in her eyes. Though the mother's eyes were not symbolic to grief but in a way Ginger derived consolation from them as quickly forgot about the fear of the darkness she just encountered.

It was after some time that Ginger recalled about her soft clouds and went to mother to talk about it. She insisted to find them but it was dark. Soon the Father came home and asked about Ginger's sullen face. After understanding the matter he assured ginger of getting them them back for her. He told her that she shall find them at the same place she left them but the right time to find them is the same time she left them. It seemed like a riddle to her but she believed him and had faith.
That night it rained heavily,Ginger got worried than ever and couldnt catch any sleep. She went up to her father who was sitting close to the window pondering over the same thing that was haunting her daughter. But he has to act strong, at least on the outside so that he could absorb the fear out of her beloved daughter. Ginger asked coyly a question that almost reminded her father of her earlychildhood.

"Father, my soft clouds must be in trouble. Its raining so hard outside. While i am in the shelter, i cant bear the thought of them fighting the strorm and the scary dark outside."

Father thought for a while and said the words which remained a guiding force throught the life of ginger
" honey, my dearest daughter, you should not fear as it is the most wretched vice present in the Universe.  For those who have faith are never daunted by any storm or the darkness. Hate fear in others but foremost hate fear in yourself as it takes away the power of reason from the mind and fills it with the darkness. Close your eyes and imagine a bright day and your soft clouds hanging in lukewarm breeze,calling your name"
Ginger closed her eyes and after a while she saw something.
" Father , i have no fear now."
" Ginger what do you see."
" Father, now i see the light!!!"
" And....honey what else you see"
" I see a very beautiful SUNSHINE"
" Any what else"
" I see the CLOUD wafting and wallowing happily in the soft white feathery like love of his beloved SUNSHINE!"


And the Father closed the diary which he was reading,the mother who was listening to the whole conversation came close to his armchair while exchanging a tinge of romantic glare through her beautiful eyes said to him.
" Stop that wishful thinking. Will you?"
And they both bursted into laughter remembering the old days while thankfully ginger's eyes were still closed!

So do you ,See the light dear???

Eureka Eureka!!!

You see, society feels that it must control or discipline the citizen, shape his mind according to certain religious, social, moral and economic patterns. One of our most difficult problems is what we call discipline, and it is really very complex. Now, is discipline necessary at all? Most of us feel, especially while we are young, that there should be no discipline, that we should be allowed to do whatever we like, and we think that is freedom. But merely to say that we should or should not have discipline, that we should be free, and so on, has very little meaning without understanding the whole problem of discipline. The keen athlete is disciplining himself all the time, is he not? His joy in playing games and the very necessity to keep fit makes him go to bed early, refrain from smoking, eat the right food and generally observe the rules of good health. His discipline is not an imposition or a conflict, but a natural outcome of his enjoyment of athletics. Now, does discipline increase or decrease human energy? Human beings throughout the world, in every religion, in every school of thought, impose discipline on the mind, which implies control, resistance, adjustment, suppression; and is all this necessary? If discipline brings about a greater output of human energy, then it is worthwhile, then it has meaning; but if it merely suppresses human energy, it is very harmful and destructive. All of us have energy, and the question is whether through discipline that energy can be made vital, rich and abundant, or whether discipline destroys whatever energy we have. I think this is the central issue. Many human beings do not have a great deal of energy, and what little energy they have is soon smothered and destroyed by the controls, threats and taboos of their particular society with


its so-called education; so they become imitative, lifeless citizens of that society. And does discipline give increased energy to the individual who has a little more to begin with? Does it make his life rich and full of vitality?



When you are very young, as you all are, you are full of energy, are you not? You want to play, to rush about, to talk — you can’t sit still, you are full of life. Then what happens? As you grow up your teachers begin to curtail that energy by shaping it, directing it into various moulds; and when at last you become men and women the little energy you have left is soon smothered by society, which says that you must be proper citizens, you must behave in a certain way. Through so-called education and the compulsion of society this abounding energy you have when you are young is gradually destroyed.



Now, can the energy you have at present be made more vital through discipline? If you have only a little energy, can discipline increase it? If it can, then discipline has meaning; but if discipline really destroys one’s energy, then discipline must obviously be put aside.



What is this energy which we all have? This energy is thinking, feeling; it is interest, enthusiasm, greed, passion, lust, ambition, and hate. Painting pictures, inventing machines, building bridges, making roads, cultivating the fields, playing games, writing poems, singing, dancing, going to the temple, worshipping — these are all expressions of energy; and energy also creates illusion, mischief and misery. The very finest and the most destructive qualities are equally the expressions of human energy. But, you see, the process of controlling or disciplining this energy and letting it out in one direction and restricting it in another becomes merely a social convenience; the mind is shaped according to the pattern of a particular culture, and thereby its energy is gradually dissipated.



So, our problem is, can this energy, which in one degree or another we all possess, be increased, given greater vitality — and if so, to do what? What is energy for? Is it the purpose of energy to make war? Is it to invent jet planes and innumerable other machines, to pursue some guru, to pass examinations, to have children, to worry endlessly over this problem and that? Or can energy be used in a different way so that all our activities have significance in relation to something which transcends them all? Surely, if the human mind, which is capable of such astonishing energy, is not seeking reality or God, then every expression of its energy becomes a means of destruction and misery. To seek reality requires immense energy; and if man is not doing that, he dissipates his energy in ways which create mischief, and therefore society has to control him. Now, is it possible to liberate energy in seeking God or truth and, in the process of discovering what is true, to be a citizen who understands the fundamental issues of life and whom society cannot destroy? Are you following this, or is it a little bit too complex? You see, man is energy, and if man does not seek truth, this energy becomes destructive; therefore society controls and shapes the individual, which smothers this energy. That is what has happened to the majority of grown-up people all over the world. And perhaps you have noticed another interesting and very simple fact: that the moment you really want to do something, you have the energy to do it. What happens when you are keen to play a game? You immediately have energy, do you not? And that very energy becomes the means of controlling itself, so you don’t need outside discipline. In the search for reality, energy creates its own discipline. The man who is seeking reality spontaneously becomes the right kind of citizen, which is not according to the pattern of any particular society or government.

In the Shadows

No sleep


No sleep until I am done with finding the answer

Won't stop

Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer

Sometimes

I feel I going down and so disconnected

Somehow

I know that I am haunted to be wanted



I've been watching

I've been waiting

In the shadows all my time

I've been searching

I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



In the shadows



In the shadows



They say

That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe

But I

I rather kill myself then turn into their slave

Sometimes

I feel that I should go and play with the thunder

Somehow

I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder



I've been watching

I've been waiting

In the shadows all my time

I've been searching

I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something

Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher



I've been watching

I've been waiting

In the shadows all my time

I've been searching

I've been living

For tomorrows all my life

I've been watching

I've been waiting

I've been searching

I've been living for tomorrows



In the shadows



In the shadows

I've been waiting

Khat

Though i keep posting lyrics of songs which are very close to my intrepid soul but unlike others the effect of this gazal is quite different on account of couple of reasons, first its sung in the best possible way by jagjit singh, secondly it is so intense when i hear it, i almost feet it every time.


Tere khushboo mei basey qat mai jalata kaise


Pyar mei dubey hue qat mei jalata kaise

Tere haathon ke likhe qat mai jalata kaise



Jinko dunia ki nigahon se chhupaye rakha

Jinko ek umr kaleje se lagaye rakha

Deen jinko, jinhe imaan banaye rakha



Tere khushboo mei basey qat mai jalata kaise...



Jinka har lafz mujhe yaad pani ki tarah

Yaad the mujhko jo paigam-e-zubani ki tarah

Mujhko pyare the jo anmol nishani ki tarah



Tere khushboo mei basey qat mai jalata kaise...



Tune dunia ki nigahon se jo bachkar likhe

Saal-ha-saal mere naam barabar likhe

Kabhi din mei to kabhi raat ko uthkar likhe





Tere khushboo mei basey qat mai jalata kaise

Pyar mei dubey hue qat mei jalata kaise

Tere haathon ke likhe qat mai jalata kaise



Tere qat aaj mai ganga mei baha aaya hoon

Tere qat aaj mai ganga mei baha aaya hoon

Aag behte hue pani mei laga aaya hoon.

Stellar Conversations

"Does God Exist?"

Gogi and i have spend so much time on star gazing on the roof-top of Bhabha, CV Raman and Viveshyaraya hostel that it would take me a complete year to write about it if i only did writing and nothing else. Though it wont be that bad an idea to do so but i can safely postpone it to my retirement. For now i would write this icononic coversation we did until morning when it was the first day of our preperation leave for 3rd semester examinations. Though we brought along books to study but ended up with just talking all the time.
When Rohit and i used to study together in school times. We would incessantly talk and talk about what not. But one thing is sure there is so much fun to talk when there is some exam after 3 days!
Not only you find amazing topics but also you can't get enough of it.

So gogi with his fat ass wanting more and more share of my bed sheet to keep off the cool breeze getting into his boxer pants asked me this question.
Even before i start to say something he threatens me not to squint my eyes in order to reflect a serious thinking stance. Well i told i can move on talking on sensitive issues without squinting my eyes Goddammit after all its about God.
So i started of with a beloved piece of writing which is very close to my heart.

"What little I know I will tell you. So far as I can reason it out I will do so, but as to what I do not know I will simply tell you what the books say. It is wrong to believe blindly. You must exercise your own reason and judgment; you must practise, and see whether these things happen or not. Just as you would take up any other science, exactly in the same manner you should take up this science(God) for study"

Gogi -" yeah but if we apply this logic we cannot find the truth because it cant be proved and by the way who are you to say that way, you too are just as human as me. "
Me-" Abe dude i didnt say those words. They are said by Swami Vivekanand"
Gogi-" Holy Shit. Why...."
Me- " Haha haa. What happened. If i say Swami Vivekanand has said it you can easily refute now and if i would have said it you are up to my ass and calling me nerd."
Gogi-" Sharme! Tommy dont use your specialised tactics on me. "
Me-" Kya! Sacchai se samna hua to phat gayi teri"
Gogi-" Ok! lets not fight like chics and get some serious output here. Afterall its PL going on."
Me-" See dude its simple. If i am in gsti and talking about paranormal activities,hightened state of consiousness, political opinions and my personal opimions no one will give a shit about it. But when i am an IIM guy you know the same JUNTA will listen to me as if its directly God Sent. So its all about HAWABAJI and Image background."
Gogi-" Think hai to tu bhi IIM mein chala ja"
Me-" Are boss you are not to take it literally it was just a Metaphor. And after i am not ok with further studies now. First i have to get some hands on experience in a strategic position.@
Gogi-" And  what is that 'strategic position'?
Me- " Dude, it means that you are in a position when you take decisions, plan and execute them thus impacting an organisation in an important way. You play a major role in entire process of working. Something like the Creater himself."
Gogi-" Whoa! Can i take that as Aham Brahamasmi kinda thing."
Me-" Not exactly but closer to it"
Gogi-" Tommy you diplomatic bastard. By the way who is going to give you such a job"
Me-" i dont know may be i ll find it by the end of final year. But i dont want to be in crowd following same thing. Tu jaanta hai yaar"
Gogi-" Yeah! Man but get one thing clear. You will have to bear a cost of it. A ship moving in opposite of the flow needs more fuel to tread its way out. "
Me-" I am ready to pay anything and i dont care about what others have to say untill i get the point of doing it. Thanks for you ship example"
Gogi-" Fuel consumption will be W=(V+V0)F(Resistance)/Calorific Value"
Me- " Hey shut up i know your maths is good"
Gogi-" Gadhe ye physics hai"
Me-" Cut the crap! If you are curious about God then you must read satyarth prakash by Svivekananda. He was in the similar state as you are, confused about God and his existence and gave his entire life for realisation of truth. True Prodigy he was. The only thing is that you are very fat and lazy."
Gogi- " You've read that book."
Me-" Yup. You want it?"
Gogi-" you only tell me then its summary."
Me-" Wah beta. Khud padle and let me sleep"

Half an hour later

Gogi-" Are you dead"
Me-" What now?"
Gogi"Where is that book?"
Me-"Room ke shelf mein"
Gogi-" Ok i am taking it"

I smiled and had a good sleep. Gogi utilised his 2 days of PL for 'Realisation of Self '.

Maestro- Jagjit Singh

An Entrepreneur,Musician and a fighter , Jagjit singh has also been conferred as the King of Gazals. Every one knows his achievements and accolades like Padam shri( 3rd highest civlian award);his fan following also includes PM Manmohan Singh and his Wife.But a few know about the personal hardships, agonies, his momentarily succumbing,struggles and incessant love for his soulmate.

Chitra Singh and Jagjit met a time when later was trying hard to carve a niche in music industry and only found small assignments to sing in private functions and marrriage parties which was quite contrary to his high held family bacground with his father in Government Service. Chitra and Jagjit's 2 year long courtship blosoomed with their marriage and eventually through consistent efforts they became first ever successful semi-classical Gazal due ever! That was the time when they gave colours to romantics and celebrated life, which is reflected in their songs if one is a avid listener.

For next two decades Jagjit only grew professionally and earned kudos from every part of country and abroad. However fate had some other plans and brought intense grief to the couple in form of death of their only son Vikram in a road accident. The incident nearly broke both of them but after some time they came back like true fighters with album ' someone somewhere'. After this album Chitra quit singing. Its said that the songs of this album are so much filled with longing and melonchaly that fans couldnt hold back their tears  when the songs were sung live!
"koi samjhega kya raaz e Gulshan; jabtalq na uljhe kaatoon se daman"
Jagjit Continued sings and his popularity has only grown in leaps and bounds after that.

Truely a pathbreaker and iconoclaust ; Jagjit Singh has shown how fate can be defied and won by perseverence and stuborness or Zid to rise up again and conquer what you believe.

Kudos man!

A Fresh Perspective

Amaratya Sen, the noble price winner in economics, is a person who is always good to hear to on account of various reasons but I in partcular like his perpectives with a flick of historical allutions he regularly makes.
In a recent television interview on NDTV he talked on a variety of issues ranging from recuperative efforts made by national and international players, and other stake holders to Unique Indentification Number. He also discussed the recent upsurge of voilence in Kashmir.

But what piqued my interest in the discussion was his usage of the term- ' fresh perpective'. According to him if a problem blows out of proportion, unpecedently such that it becomes hard to think on the lines framed previously as a solution. And that precisely calls for a newer perpective to actually rethink about what went wrong.

Obviously the Bengali economist is a well learned thinker but his conversations are never didactic. He has spent most of his life on foreign lands and that applies mostly on his daughter who recently made headlines for her bold appearances in entertainment sector on couple of occasions namely a movie and a magazine. Indian media did the possible coverage in every way to create some sensation but the veteran economist was unfliched and totally discredited the information saying he respects her daughter's penchant for her career and also her independency. That is on western lines of thinking which hard to get through the commoners.

Lets take another incidence related to a yet another NRI- Shashi Tharoor. He once allegedly denigraded Indian Middle Class by usage of the term- ' Cattle Class' which nearly tarshined his goody-goody image of Indian representative in UN. This guy also fought the elections for the post of president in UN but it was passed over to China's Ban ki moon. However that is a different story. What piqued my interest in both the episodes is the way one carries himself in a different set of cultural settings and upto what one apllies himself to develop the perspicacity as a skill to adapt and influence.

During my stint as a corporate networking official i found and learned every day mostly on my outbound assignments that importance of creating a prima-facie impression is very far-fetched. Although i understand that it is the first few seconds or minutes( for B type Personality) to adjudge a person and formation of first hand opinion; this precisely fails if one has to deal with client on various levels and continued performance showcasing situations. More importantly if the official in question looks after every single facet of the department. My profession made me look from ' a newer perpective' every time whenever i had to deal with different kinds of people.

Only a few people get an opputunity to work in the profession they are made for. The reason is not always logistical or contingency influenced. Its hard for people to find out about what they actually like in the first place. The next phase to to get there. After reaching there one cant be complacent, he or she has to make continued efforts to move in the direction of his or her desire by narrowing to field of expertise. This is known as latitudinal Expertisation. One has to be dogged enough to side line every thing which not in the priority and become focussed.

Of course you have listen to different opinions but the final decisions are to made always by the subject. When one tries to seek about great leaders and my personal favorite Ratan Tata he/she finds the importance of what i just said.

Also in the spiritual context, Human life form is the most rewarded one as compared to other life form so it becomes impending on ourselves to not merely vegetate and give back some contribution to personal upliftment and thereby spiritual self-actualisation and thereby to the fellow beings.

But for that one has to become Empowered himself/herself!!!

If it has not worked so far then look from ' a Fresh Perspective'!!!

Interpretation of dreams- Frued

I m back into business!!!
This season gave me immence time and space to ponder over the backlog of some very extensive reading and completing two very intellectual piece of writings in non fiction area in just a week which kinda reminded me of my days of thunder.
So Interpretation of dreams is considered one of most important work done sofar in psychology. The book is precise and terse. Theories supported with ample number of illustrations and emotionless dissection of every module of dreams is somewhat which will obviously tickle the spine of guiless readers. The author has refuted all the plebian and anarchial allutions made regarding dreams and has presented a very scientific approach in defining one of the esctatic yet fundamental nature of human mind.
Now comes the big question. Is this book a good for layback readers?
Answer is Yes!

An anamoly with fruedian books, this book , though a crude scientific dossier, is adaptive to common readers. However there is a word of caution here. Since the book doesnt care about how it will affect an average readers' value system, it may turn out to be a blasphemy for psuedoreligious ones. Also for people who are very dogged in their faith inclinations may feel lost somewhere as Frued has left no stones unturned to discover almost any type of dream. May it be nightmares,REM(Rapid Eye Movement)types,lascivious dreams, Plain recollective dreams; all of them!

In all this book is a highly intellectual piece of work and legendry.

Woof!!! What next? I realised after going through my 3 ISTD journals very quickly, which are considered 'agents of chaos' in my industry that effective non fiction reading have enough potential to take me to the echeleon of perfertion and still there is a lot of work to do about it.

Next in the pipeline is Bertrand Russell!!! I have read his two books already in the final year and i remember how it became in show stopper in GD sessions among Computer Guys and Prof. Parashar. It is so very controvertial and direct that hits the belief system of very dogmatic RSS activist like Prof. Parashar himself.
When i completed my discourse on Mr. Russell which ofcourse is not worth to mention on this platform, i remember his contention of allegedly China's intervention on hinduism,skewed though, derailed to nuclear warfare and what not. Even his 'arajakta in samaj' theory was shattered in to tiny pieces by ,which now i can safely say as sharma-russell's 'Societal Paradigm and Nudity concept'.
Later on you wont believe Prof Parashar Organised a summit ya a very serieous summit in Goldern Jubliee Auditorium on GSTI's take on India's Nuclear collabration with USA for fullfillent of its 'Energy Needs'. He was a Nuclear Power Plant expert In Mech. Department and a highly decorated Faculty in area. He scientifically explained the consequences and deftly involved it with RSS's Belief system. I admire him for what ever he has to say; atleast he has a POV( Pt. Of View) of his own.

Raaga

Anyone who wants to experience ulitimate 'rasa' of life can find the same in the number of ways as you find them spread sporadically here and there. One can see, hear or smell some of the best materialistic resources. You can gain satisfaction by vicarious joy in these sources. Or for that matter one can even gain first hand experience by indulging into various joy emnaters.
Cheap thrills or life threatening pleasures can give a high from rushing adreline. But..
Can anyone explain the joy of spreading a drop of water on thurst ladden tongue on a hot summer day?
Can any one explain the joy of getting a glimpse of his/her beloved even if its a mirage?
Can any one explain the joy of hearing slangs from a god like friend?
Can any one explain the joy derived from reading a sentence in a book which summerises your life?
Can some one replicate the joy of watching a movie scene you wished you could be there in it?
Can anyone describe the haunting face in a nightmare?
No...hell no!

But but but.... I feel my profound journery to escavate the joy is a miniscule whenever i hear Rag Gujri todi from the legend Ravi Shankar instrumental obviously!

I think time can stop only once;One talking to you! I really dont know how it just flows one hour gone just like that poof!
Same if not less i feel hearing to this instrument this guy plays.

One can only say after hearing-" Boss, itni bhi lagan kisi mein ho sakti hai kya"
Hats off to you Mr. Sharma and thanks for giving me some moments of peace even if for some minutes.

Now i see it what must be the exact goal of a person like me after some years of foolish " apadhapi" of life. Pursue excellence so that to get to the top of the segment of Maslow's hiearchy of needs. Everything else is just some blandishments attributed to fools or their narrow angle of frogs' eye view!

Deleterious Effect

When some form of constancy stays with you all the time it sways you away from what is current or present. The subconcious does all the routine activities as it daily does but the mind is not conciously following the events. Say you wake up, brush your teeths or get ready for work and so on. These activities are almost routine and sometimes it happens that after you have done them you cant even remember when they were done. Like if you lock gates every day and you are doing the same; some times it becomes difficult to state the exact point of time when you actually did it.

Reason- Mind is some where else. It happens with me all the time now. I have to do something to get it back. I have to stop hyperactivating atleast for some time now. One cannot live among fake events created by mind all the time. Its also frustrating to know that when you surely know that you can achieve that much coveted feat it is stopping you to get there.

There must be some way; some way to get myself back from my relevations. I have to find it. Must find that way now.

I just finished reading gita after a long time and i know that it definitely shows that way but the most discerning thing is to follow it.
Help me to get stronger and better.

Friends and Friendship day

As i was flipping through the pages of newspaper today i got fixated on the editorial column written by Karan Thapar. Though i am a die hard fan of his tv program 'Devils Advocate', which i remember gogi and me used to watch on internet on account of Mr. Thapar's excruciating style of interviewing. He used facts to completely subjugate the Guest through his strong line of reasoning and it gives a very vicarious joy to us. I remember Gogi once asked how it would be if Mr. Thapar were in conversation with Mr. Raghu of MTV Roadies?
I quickly said Mr. Thapar will blow his brains out and chew it raw because anyone with a little perspicacity of human actions would know that Mr. Raghu is a clear Cut Buffon! Haah.
I added,' Its completely different to interview teenagers who are already have a misplaced sense of self-identification( since they are on MTV in a stupid reality show where mediocre minds are inundated among brainless beauties! And Mr. Thapar here argues and smother some very high profile people such as Mr. Ramjethmalani, the one who fought manu sharma's case and jessica murder case. Also i remember his musharraf's episode.

Lemme get back to where i started. After reading that high quality column i moved to the local suppliment named Bhopal Live. There it was mentioned about the Friendship day.

So today is friendship day. And i didnt wish my single friend the same. Reason- i just didnt felt like it. Or its not a big deal. I mean none of my friends i know would feel any difference.
I wont be a Bum to criticise or applaud or comment about why its celebrated and why people msg you the same or ping you on your social networking sites.
My urge to readers is that if you have a POV( pt of view) then atleast the actions must go in accordance following a line of reasoning.
Does wishing the friendship day suffices the duties adhered irreplacably with this relationship. I mean what's our motto here. I am not not against westernisation but i am against psuedowesternisation.
I am against this hypocrisy by which we have ladden ourselves. Do anyone know about what actually is western culture or for that matter Indian Culture.
We are very good in incorporating new principles but very very weak to incorporate them.Biggest failure in this pursuit is the middle class. They under the gard of staying in fashion have actually become outmoded and bereaved of stong line of reasoning.

Because of this many irregularities have started to errupt on a large scale. Honour Killings can be taken as just one of the outcomes. Leave apart the agonies which a younster has to face with everday conflicts.

People are unclear about the extent,scope and horizon of various relationships say friendship or opposite sex relationships. People are different and different are their upbringings. But when they are put on a common platform say work place, college or school they thrive to become what they never are or what they wont be allowed when they approach their original environment say home or society.

Among these conflicts one feels loose at some point of time and some times he or she feels binded altogether with little space of self development. This is the reason why we find only a very small fraction of middle class taking important decisions and while other are totally unaware of possibilities and risks. So , a few enterprenuers. All we have done is to create a legacy of followers!

Keeping discussion closer to frienship i would very much like to mention the extraordinary Character of " Danveer Karan " from Mahabharata. Its an axiom that a friend like Karan is like having the most precious asset.
Karan and Duryodhan shared a distinct kind of friendship. Karan always knew what was the righteous path or the path of dharma. When Duyodhan was adamant in his stance to wage a war against the pandavas, Karan backed him and supported him with all his might. Every thing for a friend.
Arjun had the almighty God himself as his friend as Shri Krishna, who showed him the right path. Karan knew this too. But enliving friendship was his greatest Dharma which he did!

I have knowingly alluded to this epic on account of celebrating a few points here.
1. A friend is one who helps you in need. Its not an idealistic statement. I mean every word of it. When you want that your friend must be here right now because you are in trouble he should be there leave the good times. I have seen people like them and i am proud to have friends like them.

2. Though people cut cakes for friendship day just like some imbeciles do these days, do not be fearful or in a state of quandary if a real friend needs you also its your right to ask that help and thats how a legacy is created.

So for me Friendship is the most sacred and important relationship in life.

I conclude this post with Pawan's words as he used to say: " Any thing for a friend."