Allah Ka Noor

To fight a long battle one needs to keep a character that signifies time untill someone can be broken. Its a fast changing world and its not that this is a figurative sentence. The every word related to it is true to its core. We resist change. Its a human tendency to resist change.
I broke down one day.
So what?
Rise up. Just like that.
So i keep reminding me my goals and the place i deserve to be. I cut off from everyone and its not like yesteryears. How can it be? Everything is changing.
It happens sometimes that i cant stand myself in the mirror cause it keeps on telling what i was; whereas i want to see what i can be.
I am bored of asking that rhetorical question-" Why me?"
" Why do i have to keep proving me all the time?"
" Why i have set my aspirations so high?"

Then i smile back to that situtation telling that big rewards dont come easy and may be its a little more tough in your case but anyhow you have to get what you deserve.

If some one asks me why are you doing all this, i have a story to tell them to answer it.
'I went my school one evening and i though it would all be kinda a long forgotten story. I mean who remembers that I even existed there. Many come and go. So my attachments for all i did in that place may have been well washed out like you wipe off a slate to write afresh.
I went inside i saw a watchman pretty old. I recognised him he was the same! I tried not to pose myself as someone who he should recognise so i just passed by and not looking at him.
As i walked on some distance some one called me by my name. 'Rahul beta'. He was that watchman. And i instantly replied 'haan Ramu dada'.
I told him that a very little has changed in this school and he told me how much the school has changed. After some talking i went out for a stroll inside the campus. Its all like being there yesterday with just one exception that everything was smaller than i had anticipated. May be i have grown taller.

After i moved out i just cant believe at what i saw. My name on a big notice board showing chronological sequence of student leaders.
School Captain batch 2004- Rahul Sharma
And i got my motivation!!! '

Some people will never understand what that means to me and other will state it as materialistic but seriosly those small rewards here and there comprise my life and for them i am ready to set more and more tough goals and sweat till i am nauseated. Beacause i know that i am like that Fakir in the Hindi poem text book, i donno which class, who want to see only one thing - 'Allah ka Noor'.

So yes i am also ready to weather in any conditions and my reward is ' Allah Ka Noor '!!!