hope

What is true about this moment that I can grasp?

Okay there is rejection, suffering and no peace of mind.

But on the hindsight there is hope. Hope of rising again no matter what may come by. I know what I want is far but it’s not out of sight. It’s visible although blurred. No its not a mirage in the desert even though the series of situations have tried me to believe that.

Now why I want you so much?

Why do I need you so much?

Why it that all that I crave is is to talk to you even for some seconds?

When every thing else is gloomy I thought you will be capable enough to show me that light, that ray of hope. I will never explicitly tell you about my current predicament not now not ever because this testing moment will hopefully be faded.

Relationships don’t need name or any coronation from masses. All they need is some matter which is quintessential for their nurturing. My inadvertent development of trust, belief and love has created an infallible dependency on you. This very thing is outrageous and immature on my part. It never crossed my mind that if you will not be available when I face the testing waters; it will be a doomsday for me.

I never had and nor ever tried to depend on some one and to fulfill this I never really came close to that extent to anyone. I kept my spaces intact and there was vacuum. Nothingness,which was composed of my hallucinations; the only source of my joy.

The problem is that now you have got into those imaginations and it is not possible for me to separate you out.