Hypocrites

The world doesn't disappear if you close your eyes.

" Slow down rahul you are too fast "

" Too fast? Am just warmed up "

" Hey! Hey ! This isn't my car goddammit; its my dad's "

" Ya its not mine either. Its your dad's car. Any ways thanks for the info.I don't like this match box alto anyway."

" Info! Ass hole he's gonna kill me if there is a scratch on it."

"Kill you. Well technically i also very much sometimes feel like to kill you dear friend."

" Cut the crap. Slow down the fcn vehicle down. "

" Hey relax. Its an empty high way in the middle of the night and only thing which we would have to maneuver is this car of your and those trucks can take care of themselves."

" Dude! me allowing you to drive was a very bad idea in the first place."

" Ya. you are right and now there is no going backwards. Its a rule in my book and also you have very fewer choices left honey bunny."

"Look! I ll be nice and i ll forget that you pushed this little car to 100 kmph if you pull over and give me the steering. How about that?"

" What about that. Its not lucrative at all your offer to 'pull over' "

" Ok slow down now. We have enuff time to hit the destination. Moving this fast will fatten our fuel bill."

" I am paying."

" See dude. Its kinda imprudent and childish to say this but you might wanna stop the car coz i cant bear the idea of having this car crashed and me dying this early and that too along with you."

" Wooh! Nice imagination Uncle. See a little discomfort can really tickle your thinking nerves."

" I wont say a thing rahul you unholy maniac. Ok i am scared. But because of this impulse i will survive."

" See i told you; you think better when there is discomfort around."

" Are you listening to me?"

" What?"

" Are you listening to me? Rahul! Is everything ok"

" Ya dude its ok. Its just that it reminded me of something"

" Who?"

" Her"

" Not Again.Man. Its all fine i think its just that may she needs some time or some important priority. May be because of her family obligations she cant talk right now."

" Just shut the fuck up tommy. Stop intoxicating me with some thing which i dont know. ........ Sorry but its just that i have been giving myself the same reasons all this time and again. I know it may also me hard for her.

But its fucking 21 st century and she is an engineer. If you are saying that talking to me for 10 seconds can create a catastrophe for her then tell be what do i look like to you."

" hey rahul. Man just be okay. I know you miss her. But its just out of control this situation to me"

" Out of control. Man i hate it. Tell me once! You have seen me for i dont know how many years. Was i sentimental for any girl till this time."

" Ha haha haa. Not to my info. But i always knew if its gonna happen with you it will be unfathomable, the extent of the attachment."

" You dumbass. its nice you are smiling huh! Every dog has a day. But seriously tommy you know i never compromise with the things and people. This very time when it was something very special to me; its so hard for me to bear the fact that she is just 100 kms to me and cant talk to me even on the phone."

" Look dude! I know the way we had handled things before. We may not have been right everytime but ultimately we did it for our friends and this time also you know sonny, dixy, rony, bhattu, dushy and i will do the things only that way the way you want it."

" I know tommy. You dont have to say that."

" But we cant see you suffer like this champ. Every one looks up to you man. Let me figure out something. You know she has same feelings for you? "

" Ya. I believe this is the case."

" Good. Then whats the problem. Lets fill the tank some more and by 5 in the morning we can reach bhopal. Then you can meet her up and tell her how are you feeling."

" Dude. If i had to do that. I would have done that already. I also tried it before but it didnt work out. I mean that may upsets her. Once i went to do the same. I picked up mustus car and i woke up early u wont believe like 4 am and then in order to give her a surprise i called her and said i was in bhopal for some college work. But i couldnt catch up. But then she said to her mom who promply invited me her home. I then rushed along with my mom purposely with mom so that things dont blow out of proportion and everything looks normal.
That was one of the best evening that i ever had. I told mom about how i felt about her. She already may be knew it cos she knows i never really hooked up with girls before.
But since that evening dude; life had literally played violin with my ass.
her parents saw her crying because of me and that was the end.
Every time i think about it. Its just.... hard to breathe in here. Lets pull over.

" Ok"

" will u care for some tea. tommy "

" ya sure."

"Help yourself ass hole. Dont think if i am senti then you can take advantage!"

" Hah! Nice joke. hey what that on you hand."

" What. Its nothing. Just a scratch."

" Nope. Its something else. some pattern of a sort.Its some blade marks. Whom did you mess up with. Show it to me. Jesus Christ Rahul are you mad? Whats that."

" Its nothing. Just a small thing."

" Ass hole what do you think of yourself you are trying to prove"

" Am not proving any thing to any body? Okay"

" Then why did you carve her name on your hand that too with a blade."

" See lets not discuss this. i ll fetch you some tea. "

" Forget about it. I need an explaination for this. Right now."

" Okay i called her. As always she didnt turn up so i write a msg that i ll cut myself if you dont. And nothing happens after it. So i did this."

" Stupid if she didnt picked up you dont have to do this."

" I wrote her that msg dats why"

" Asshole it was just a msg. It doesnt mean you actually mean every word of it"

" Well she doesnt like hypocrites tommy.She wrote that some where. And I said it that means i have to do it. Afterall its not that bad. Its her name. I like it on my body. skin deep."

" Come here Dude.I didnt knew you love her that much."

" How much tommy."

" Forget about it. Lets have some tea. Clear some air."

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