The One I never Sent To U

My precious, most beloved girl
I knew it was only after you had gone that i would realize the full extent of my happiness and, alas! the degree of my loss as well.I still cannot grasp it, and if that elegant golden box with luxury pen and that sweet picture were not lying in front of me, I would think it was all a beguiling dream and be afraid to wake up.
But I now know its all real. You are mine, the sweet girl of whom everyone speaks with admiration, who despite all my resistance captivated my heart at our first meeting. You are the one who came towards me with high minded confidence at our second meet and strengthened the faith in my own value and gave me new hope and energy to work when i needed it most.
When i return, darling girl, i shall have conqurered the shyness and awkwardness which have so far inhibited me in your presence.We will sit alone in that nice little room again, my girl will settle down in that chair and we will talk of the time when there will be no difference between night and day, when neither intrusions from without nor farewells nor worries shall keep us apart.
Your Lovely picture. At first, when i had the original you in front of me i did not think so much of it; but now, the more i stare at it the more it resembles the beloved you sweet girl. I expect the pale cheeks to flush the colour my roses were( which i brought along but didnt give to you still in my car's dashboard). I expect your delicate arms to detach themselves from the surface of laptop's screen and seize my hand; but the precious pic doesnt move, it just seems to say: " patience!patience! I am just a symbol, some pixels on your screen; the real person is going to come to you and then you can neglect me again."


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if i had known that, that was the last time i will see till this time; i would not have let u go widout me but alas the above one was more happy in the drafts folder which came out only today.
Mr. Blunt said it all in this song about my current predicament.
"I am so hollow
i am so hollow baby
i am so i m so .............hollow widout u"