Conflicts

Its very difficult to see things in isolation of prevailing set of conditions. That dreamy state of beliefs wont fetch a thing unless my convictions come into materialization.
Over the past year this has been true. This doesn't mean i m wary of my capabilities but i have to become much more organized. You see, the world outside doesn't care what you are inside unless one becomes a very good actor. But if you are not the conflicts are bound to arise. Then there are two options.
1. Hit your head on how pitiful were your actions.
2. Give your self a breather (again)!, and hope things will become favorable.

Either way you wont find the solution.
Now these internal conflicts grows and then you decide that you will change according to what is demanded outside. But while doing that you find the very special ingredients one is made up of begins to dilute.
One may find his or her best friends say " buddy you have changed now"

Then you look back and introspect was this all worth something. I mean its very important for people to nurture their basic instincts because that is what their identity is made up of.

When we talk of uniqueness this becomes a deciding factor. But what if some one's basic nature is not in conformation to what is demanded outside?

That is a very important question for me because i would not be very much keen on to hanging to this idea.

Inside me is madness.This madness feeds itself on my schizophrenic demeanor. After all this Freudian concept of psychoanalysis requires its administrator to be at least a bit twisted!
So here is the catch. Fighting with the world makes things worse but you can silently work under the cover playing and manipulating the outside according to what is inside of you.

And ya i almost forgot you should know this thing about Madness- Its like Gravity , all it requires is a little Push!!!!!