Place of Solace

Everytime you want to do something different, which is nonexisting in the natural course of flow, you need to pay a price for it.
Okay
I am now in this new apartment of mine. Its on the top floor right in the sky. Locality is bit slow in here but nearby bengali area, they call it that way, is densely populated. Nice outskirts, long never ending highway and beautiful ambience.
Only thing is that, i m alone in here. Big house and me alone is something never happened before considering my college days.
The space which i have now would have easily accomodated about half a dozen boys. But i now thats past.
The reason i m here is that my self inficted pain on me needs a place which is meditative and this place is quite worthy of calling it one.
Anyways when things get lost into oblivion u have ample time to think about future.

Ambitions and life both go along well in here. I sleep in the veranda staring directly into the sky.

New people in here. Already i m friends with a retired old bengali serviceman. I find him every day when i go for jogging. He is spending the rest of his life with his son and family.

Also there is a multistoried hospital besides my place. Excellent facility it provides, people say. Just opposite to my balcony is a space where i can directly see the patient lying on the bed.

Quite interestingly the patient changes almost in a couple of days. So thats something which gets my attention.

Anyhow life teaches you a lesson all the time.
We are human beings its quite possible that when we are strong in one area, the other area can be quite weak.
i m known as a head strong personal at work but for last few days i became emotionally weak.
This shift is helping me. My goal is to become emotionally intelligent in this month itself so that nothing can sway me from goals.
I know that it will call for ultimate testing of my senses but when u gotta go u gotta go.