"i dont want to be a product of environment, i want my environment to be a product of me."

"i dont want to be a product of environment, i want my environment to be a product of me."

Stillness in the environment,warm wind on my face,a naughty sun staring at me when i take shade in your hairlocks.I didn't felt that fragrance since a long time.As i stare her just to make her laugh,it seems to me that i have won the world. First time i felt the time was still.I could have lived my entire life in that moment.The way she shakes her head in despair and suppressing her smile , i could say nothing and try to savour the moment forever.
I then think that when life is small why everyone has to run to live through it.Now its like a subtle effect of light drug that they say stops time.I tried but it was just slowing things a little bit but with her its like i dont want to do anything but keep looking at her.
When she tells some-sweet-funny-thing i just couldn't understand anything but her eyes.its happens that in the middle of it i ask her about whom she was talking.
What happens to a guy like me who has been through much meets this girl.Dont you say that i've been overreacting and mumbling the rhetorics,do say that i'm closer to the stage when a person gets to know what a seet thing life is.
For the first time its happening that i dont want anything but her.I imagine her with me side by side having conversations.I like hyperacting the things out just like the kids do.